Blood Moon Eclipse Recap. 9-29-2015.

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! It's 3:14am here right now, and I sit here processing some deep and heavy thoughts and emotions yet again.. How was everyone's wild ride through this past eclipse? What happened for you and what did you experience? Mine was very intense, as I watched a dream that I had about two weeks ago unfold into reality. In this dream, I was trying to get a hold of someone, and I asked why they had not called or anything and their response was " I was with another woman" and the words I heard in their dream voice sounded so sad and regretful, as if they hated themselves for having to tell me this, and it was the very last thing they wanted to have to tell me at all.
Fast forward to Sunday. and it just happens to be this someone I have not heard from in months, that one person that I have missed like it is killing me,  that I have waited for weeks and needed to see and talk to, needed to have close to me, and whom I am so sick inside over being forced to live without, who finally texts my phone..and some of the words on the screen were "Oh the reason I have not talked to you much is because I am kinda talking to someone" and " I am not with her, just talking."
My reaction to this bomb drop of information, and the realization that oh I have seen and heard this already..was a boiling and seething rage, and  jealousy, possessiveness, a devastating sense of betrayal and loss, and a deep pain like someone had just stuck a serrated knife in my heart, lungs, and gut, and gave it a sharp twist. I actually felt sick and gagged and choked from from how strongly it hit me. Someone had just crossed a invisible line, and made a move and spoke a word in the totally wrong way. Someone else dared to see, speak to, and be near what I felt was "Mine" and was "talking to" someone I love and cherish with all of my heart and soul, and possibly going to take them away?
It was as if someone just thrust a rusty key in a old lock and pried it open, the wild thing that has been clawing, digging, and thrashing at me for weeks finally came undone from deep inside of me and I let it loose like a brutally tortured and taunted beast that had been kept in a cage for too long, and it was now finally freed, and roaring and snapping for blood.
Perhaps I may have let it loose too harshly, and I probably hurt and shocked the person on the other end of the screen I was texting with my volatile and out of nowhere reaction. I'm pretty sure they were not remotely prepared for the exact reaction that their the words would cause. and even if they were somewhat expecting it, I am sure the intensity of it all was a bit much to take and deal with. But I too finally came out with some of my own truths that they also probably already knew and understood, but they also finally needed to actually hear and see the words and feel the emotions connected to it about who, what and why, and about some things have happened between us and why I felt that way, and what helped to spur the action behind why I have done some things over the last few months.
There has been a heavy silence between us for a couple of days now, and probably for the best as the emotions are still raw and shredded up like freshly ground hamburger. The last two days I have felt very much like someone beat the tar out of me and I couldn't breathe right and my chest even hurt yesterday. I haven't ate or slept too much either, my emotions and other things that lay deep inside of me have been too deeply rattled to pay any mind to the physical needs.
This eclipse and the energy packed into it was raw, volatile, and fierce for me and probably just as much for them.. I am now questioning if one of the the other dreams I had, will also come to be? What actions and movement will now take place? What decisions will be made, and what other truths will be revealed now that we both have finally gone through a vital transformation and a crucial turning point? Sometimes, even when we are shown the truth, we still sometimes need to see further evidence and have it validated to actually believe and accept it. That dragon needs to be prodded just the right way, that button pushed way too hard for the last time, and that lock forcefully opened. Things have to change, energy needs to be unblocked and allowed to flow, movement has to be made, and sometimes it takes letting loose that which you hold on a chain, locked deep inside of you, and not be afraid to face it down in all of its glorious wrath, terrifying fury, and mesmerizing beauty. I am going to go for now..daylight comes and I need to start the next day..and see what comes..Blessed Be to  all and I shall return soon.                

Uncrossing Spell Results From 8-29-2015

Hey everyone and Bright Blessings. I got some good news to report about that Uncrossing Spell I done during August's Full Moon. Remember I specifically asked St Holy Death to Uncross my crappy financial issues? Well today I went grocery shopping, got a bill paid, and ran some errands. When I got back I checked my credit balance.. as I was originally going to find out how low I was getting, because someone was trying to talk me into renewing my cell phone service and I said no. I wanted to wait..I logged into my account, expecting to be pretty broke, only to see that I was in fact finally given the credit increase that I have paid 6 months' worth of bills to earn!! I was not expecting to actually see this raise until January..that is usually when I am due for a increase in my credit.
I am not going to get exuberantly excited just yet about my newly awarded financial increase because Mercury is in full swing of his Retrograde phase, and will not go back into forward motion until October 9th. Major purchases using a credit card and a debit or ATM machine qualifies as a Mercury Retrograde "Don't!!"  I have already seen a few glitches in communications and how my computer has been acting up a bit. that is also why I declined getting my phone service renewed..no buying electronics or anything like that while Mercury is in retrograde..it will be a lemon and backfire in your face somehow!!
During this time I have also went through a strong desire to be deleting, blocking, and removing people, situations, and problems from my personal and social life that no longer have a reason or serve a actual purpose. I have strongly felt like if they are not helping me achieve any successes or doing anything really good for me or my life well it just has to go and be gone for good! Also I have a job interview for Friday the 25th..two days before the next Blood Moon Eclipse coming on Sunday the 27th. and it is the same Friday before the Full Moon that I reserve for love and financial spells.  I will hopefully do my money spell on Friday..and go to this job interview later on that afternoon and hopefully get the job. If Goddess and God blesses me again with some financial luck like this I am going to probably break down in tears or something emotional...seriously this past two weeks have been one wild ride on the crazy train! The emotional rattling between these two eclipses have been very intense for me and I am pretty sure it is far from done! I found out recently that my mom's hubby just lost his job..something they definitely cannot afford to have happen right now, I will not be too surprised if I find out they are moving or something pretty soon, or that someone else I know is moving..as Eclipses seem to bring on sudden changes like that, and they seem to strongly affect my life in particular. I know it is not only just me but some days it really feels that way!
I am going to go for the moment..I have plenty to be doing. I am still writing on my books and doing small odds and ends for " work" to keep us from being too broke...that is a never ending struggle right now..but as y'all can see..Goddess and God and even St Holy Death..do work in ways you least expect!!    

Trancendence of Dreams and Reality.

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings. Today I want to share something interesting that has been on my mind all afternoon. Earlier today I laid down for a nap. I dreamed that I was highly upset, grieving some type of loss and frantically searching for someone I know whom appears to have either died or has been lost to me for awhile,, to pass along the message to them of  "You don't have to make a choice but I hope you make the right choice and I hope it is for the right people" Now one of the thoughts I had before I laid down, was that this person seems to be someone I don't really know anymore, and I have lost them and it feels as if they have died, or the person I used to know has died in a sense, and they are lost to me. Do I really know them as well as they claim I do? Better than anyone? This thought carried over into my dream.
Now back to dream land..alternate reality..whatever it is supposed to had been..while I was looking frantically trying to find this person to give them the message, a man appeared before me, I recognized this man but in a way I did not know him, it was like I was staring at the man I was looking for and he had finally came back and I had found him, but it was still not the same person, he had grown out dark blonde hair that was pulled back and a longish goatee, and was dressed in a brown shirt and a white tank shirt underneath. He then proceeded to strip down out of his clothes and hand them to me, and then stood before me bare naked. I felt he was silently asking me to accept or recognize the person that now stood stripped bare in front of me, as if I were to either make a choice, to accept the man before me that had just changed and shed layers of who he was and bared it all to me, or not. Either way I was to make some kind of choice.  I could only see the waist up, why I could not see below that wasn't revealed, as due to my son waking me up right about then and before I could give a answer and before the scene could reveal more than that.  While it was probably for my own good my son came in there and woke me, there was probably a good reason for it aside from the fact that Ghost Hunters was about to be on and we were going to watch it. I have still made a note to myself that when I take a nap from now on that my blasted door is going to be locked! I cannot count how many times have I been jumped and startled awake out of a good sleep and important dream time by my well meaning but deliberately intrusive child, who seems to have the ungodliest sense of timing.  
Now back to waking real life time. after I thought of this dream..the idealism of snakes came to mind out of nowhere. It crossed my mind that even as the person in my dream was shedding his clothing in front of me that I was still not allowed to see the rest, what if below the waist there was a serpent's tail, a secret being deliberately hidden away, and I was only meant to see what was being shown to me that he wanted me to see, instead of what I should have been looking for? I cannot just a make a choice of acceptance or recognize something or someone until I get the whole picture and see the entire situation and the person(s) involved for what it really is and is not. Snakes shed their skin regularly to change, grow and transform out of what they were into what they are supposed to be. I personally have a thing against snakes, as in the saying  "snake in the grass" and other such foreboding things. I respect the animal and its many symbolic meanings of healing, wisdom, fertility, transformations, and so forth, but I still do not have a strong trust or have a keen liking for them. If I see one I will admire it and let it be, respect the beautiful deadliness of it, and let it go on its way and have peace,that is unless it poses a threat or a danger in some way. We here in TN have many types of poisonous snakes so its best to give any that you see a healthy distance until it can be identified.

I thought hard about the idea that even when a snake sheds it's skin..it is still a snake, it has not changed very much, it just has a shiny new skin and has grown a bit more, it might even be prettier than it was, and it maybe a enticement or seem very charming to you, you maybe hypnotized and drawn to it,mesmerized by its beauty, but you have to accept and understand that is still a snake, no matter how it has appeared to have changed. You have to make a choice whether or not you want to pick that thing up or handle it and risk getting yourself bitten. If you choose to handle it then hope and pray it is not poisonous enough to kill you or make you deathly sick or it is not the kind that will wrap you in it's embrace and crush you to death. You can handle a snake of any type or kind, even be it's friend or learn to have a certain kind of love and fondness for it, and it will have something to teach you, about shedding old skins and transforming yourself into something more than you were, and learn a lot of wisdom from the serpent, however..like most snakes, proverbial and natural, they also wait for prey to walk blindly right into their grasp, so they can strike and leave you poisoned to die, or snatch a hold of you and crush you.  
The same can be said of certain kinds of men and a few women,..for how many of them wait in secret, biding their time, they have long beforehand picked out their prey and are waiting for the prey to walk too closely, so they might entice with their beauty, charm with words and gestures, keep you hypnotized by the lulling sound of their words and the way they stare at you, and right at the exact moment strike hard to inject you with their own kind of poison,and bite you repeatedly and leave you to slowly die from their deadly kind of "love", or they happen to get a hold of you, and attempt to smother you in their embrace of "love" until you suffocate and are crushed to death? Well here in the south, to alot of people the only good snake is a dead snake..you find a hoe or something sharp and chop off its head, hang its squirming body on a barbed wire fence, and wait for the rain to come while it's blood drip on the ground. I'll leave y'all to think about that.. Bright Blessings and see you all again soon!    

"Grimm"

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings, how has the week been for you? I cannot say mine has been too great, but it has had some bright spots and I have seen some more affirmations that bolster my faith even if the last couple of days have felt like my personal world is going haywire. There has been a lot of turbulent and wired up emotional energy going on with me lately, I'd appreciate a break from the roller coaster ride of extremely deep emotions, and the exhaustion of so much mental and spiritual processing! I did a Uncrossing spell recently, invoking St Holy Death, I asked specifically for my seemingly crossed and dismal financial woes to be cleared up, and for another special favor. I waited for a sign that what I asked for would manifest pretty soon. Yesterday I was given a interesting and very moving sign that Her Holiness was listening to me. Today..my son bought me a "Grimm" Ty Beanie toy. Grimm is a very innocent looking and adorably cute likeness of a grim reaper, of whom Santa Muerte closely resembles. I immediately giggled and thought about that grim reaper character from the old cartoon I used to watch  called "The Grimm Adventures of Billy and Mandy" On a more serious note.. all the things for my son to buy for me it just so happened to be a representation that resonated so strongly to me! I will hold onto my adorably precious Grimm until it falls apart. Right at this moment it sits very proudly on my dresser top where the St Holy Death candles and altar space is. It is a very special presentation of a powerful spiritual presence and it came from my son out of his own pocket money that he didn't have to spend on me.

My son is 13. The Tarot card that signifies Death is also numbered as 13. That tarot card signifies a life altering change, death, rebirth, and transformations, both good and bad, in your life in ways that you may not see coming and if you happen to already know what those changes will be then it is best to try and prepare or at least be expecting it, in the event that it might be something painful or unexpected that gets thrown at you like a curve ball. Considering the way that the sign revealed itself out of a place of love and selfless kindness from a son towards his mother, I should very much hope that the sign I got today was for a positive change! St Holy Death made her presence known through my child in a way that I was just floored by. My mind is busy trying to work out some of the hidden and more complex meanings behind why She would present herself to me and through him in such a deep and profound way. Some of you might see that as a potential bad omen or a warning, and perhaps it is, would my own child be tapped into as a type of oracle by Her Holiness and directed by Her in giving me a clear warning that Death is soon to visit my household, and bring a catastrophic and inevitable change to all of us in ways that I am not ready to face down and I am not prepared for? Yes that is possible, if you look at the reversed meaning of the Death Tarot card, however I am not going to bring myself down into a dark hole of anxiety and fear by thinking about all the potential dangers and disasters that may or may not happen.

Whatever changes are about to come, good or bad, they will be inevitable and there will not be too much I can do to halt or prevent them from happening.  Now let me bring up another fact..September 13, 2015 is a New Moon Solar Eclipse. Please again notice the number 13..the symbolism of that was just a bit jarring to me, really there is only so much synchronicity of information I can absorb at one time!  This will be a time of transformations, changes, endings and and beginnings on a very potent scale for everyone, not just for me. The 9th House, is highlighted in this upcoming eclipse,with foreign and international travel, writing, speaking, publications, social media, educational and spiritual pursuits, and other areas similar to this being brought into a massive bout of changes for everyone, so if you happen to be doing any of these above mentioned things in your life, expect to see a very strong change come about in the days and weeks following this eclipse. I will be looking for more signs that foretell of changes that will surely uproot, turn inside out, and bring sweeping changes in and around my life. Me personally I have been working on trying to finish my second book and starting on a third that will be a companion novel to the second book,, so I have already been working on where my life goals are heading for after this New Moon. If I do not get the second book published, I will at least get to finish it.

Today I found this picture on my Facebook wall, and it hit me hard in the gut because well I couldn't have said or thought of this one any better if I tried, it looked like someone had just took the exact words from my mind and heart that I have had some intense emotions around, and stuck it right on my wall for just me to see in crystal clear clarity. Perhaps I just needed to actually read the words in order to better process all the emotional madness I have been struggling with for what seems like forever. I personally hope this upcoming eclipse brings a change to all o that too. I'm tired and worn out in ways I did not think I could be and I've had quite enough of the heart and mind and soul chain rattling!  I am going to go for now, Bright Blessings to everyone and Have a great weekend! I will be back to update on what happens in a few days after the eclipse.  

Venus Retrograde ends today!

Venus, planet of love, money and all kinds of things that embodies what and who we "love" comes out of retrograde today, and I have to say I have noticed a huge shift in energy today. As for me,  personally I have had one of those deep and harsh emotional days where I have a lot of things, situations, and people on my mind that bring about some pretty turbulent emotions. Things I have not thought about in a few weeks suddenly have come roaring to the surface like a seething and bubbling lava flow, demanding that I deal with and process it all further and either let it go or make a change to either fix or renew it. All the things that have been stagnant, blocked, or just not happening in our love and financial lives will start to become unblocked and move forward again after today.

If you have been dealing with a ugly financial rut, or a relationship or love situation has not been going too well, then rest assured those types of things will be brighter and things will look up after today, however we will have to be patient and bide our time wisely and not rush to make rash decisions until at least the end of this month, as Mercury goes retrograde again on September 17th, and this will stall and snarl up everything to do with communications, electronics, and how we express ourselves and get our points across in work, love, relationships, and everything else. Best to start off slow,and gently begin new things in our lives, but not to be rash and plow into a new venture and then be disappointed when we hit the snag and possibly run into a brick wall that is definitely coming when September 17th rolls around.    
 So even though Venus is coming out of retrograde, well we are not out of the woods yet! Venus will be in peak form and be chugging smoothly along by October 9th.
If you are planning to get some major work and work related projects done, or be talking to or somehow making a strong move towards that love interest,such as a engagement, marriage, first date, or anything "serious" you might want to be doing that before September 17th, or else you will be forced to wait until after October 9th. If you are just now beginning a new venture towards love, work, or anything to do with those areas, now is the time to start and get the basic plans and proposals made and laid in place, before Mercury goes Retrograde. You can start the small things now, but wait until after Mercury comes out of retrograde to fire it up and go full steam ahead.

I will use one of my own recent experiences as an interesting example of what I meant by situations becoming unblocked and stagnant energy being removed and released, a few days ago, I made a unpleasant discovery, that one of my spell jars that I had done two months ago when I moved into my new apartment had grown fuzzy white mold! I have never had any type of spell jar to do this before so I knew this was a very negative development and it had to be gotten rid of and removed immediately! This mold had permeated into everything I had in the jar, it was even stuck to the spell paper. So last night, I took apart this jar, intending to clean it out, and throw away the ruined contents. The minute I popped off the lid of this jar, I felt a tingling, warm sensation all over my skin as if I had just released and removed a stagnated and blocked energy, and this tingly warm feeling lasted the entire time while I cleaned the jar, washed the stones, and disposed of the ruined materials that were in the jar. I even heated the wax remnants from the previous spell candles I had used on the top of the jar and got rid of that too. I was advised that when a spell jar molds, or otherwise goes bad for any reason, all herbs, roots, papers, and biodegradable materials have to be removed and buried into the earth. In my case, it all got wrapped in brown paper, and taken to the garbage bin. I cannot be seen burying stuff on my landlady's private property, so my stuff had to go inside the bin, and the trash truck will take it off. The point being is that my ruined contents that were in the jar, and the negative energy that accumulated will now go far away from me.
The tingling warm sensation that I received from cleaning out the molded mess was a positive sign that I was doing exactly what I was supposed to be doing at the time. The negative energy that had accumulated inside the spell jar was released and unblocked and is now going to be removed from me and my life. I feel like this was why I felt a lot of emotional turbulence today, I needed to also release and let go of a few things that had been pushed away into the back of my mind and today Venus comes out of her slumber and is about to be awakened again. Not hard to see the correlation there.  I feel like when I rework this jar along with the Uncrossing spell I am going to work on tonight, that I will see a far different result manifest!  I am going to go for a bit, I have that spell to be working on in a hour's time! I will be back again soon and Bright Blessings to All!          

Full Moon 8-29-2015

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings. Today is the Full Moon, and I started today by watching my daughter Jasmin leave and go back home to Maine, at 7:30 am this morning. Definitely not the most fantastic and joyous way to start the day and I have to say my mood is heart rending miserable right now.  Full Moons are for "releasing" and "letting go" of  things, people, situations, and emotions that you need to allow to leave your life  in order to make room for other things to manifest and come into your life. My daughter will return next June..as she spends her summer break with me, and spends the rest of her year with her Father in Maine.
Despite a lot of very negative past issues and a bitter and devastating divorce, He and I managed to still maintain and cultivate a strong friendship and we get along to a extent, at least from a distance. I honestly cannot say that I know of too many other divorced couples that have managed to achieve that. We tried reconciliation at one point, let me say that did not go well for either of us. Too many things had been damaged and destroyed between us on too many vital levels for the love to be rekindled in the way it once was..and it took us both a very long 5 years of time to finally get to the point where we are right now, where we can talk about things,and where we can spend brief amounts of time together and it be comfortable and amicable. I am not in love with him anymore as I was 10 years ago, and if I had it to do over again I can confidently say that I would not. It would not be a smart move for either of us to try and go through all of that again. He has recently remarried.. and although I personally feel like that might have not been a wise or well thought out decision on his part or even for the new wife.. that is not my decision and is out of my control. I have to keep most of my thoughts and opinions about that situation to myself, even if I feel I may be right. 
I have also moved on..I have let other people be in my life, and I have also allowed myself to give my heart to another, or rather, Goddess and God literally brought that blessing into my life at a very crucial moment.. during a day very similar to today.. and even thought that situation currently is also not going as I wish it would.. there is a reason for that too even if I do not know all the answers as to why yet.       
I was supposed to have done my Money Spell last night but I didn't get to, I was too busy making sure Jasmin was ready to go home and my family and personal obligations take precedence over anything else. So tonight I will improvise and do a similar spell and make sure all of my bags, crystals, and tools are left out to charge in the moonlight. I will also write a small petition to ask for a release of the things and emotions that make me feel unhappy and sorrowful, and ask for something positive and meaningful to come around to help me cope with my sense of incompleteness and how it is that my life does not feel whole or fulfilling without my Flower physically being here in mine and her brother's lives. Me sitting here driving myself into a fit of depressed misery will not change anything and will not serve me any real purpose. Time is ticking by quickly today, so best for me to get off my behind and get to work, so I will see you all later, and I will update again soon. Have a Blessed Day! 

Light In The Darkness, Candle Divination. 8-26-2015

 Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! This past Monday, the 24th, me and the kids were in the dark quite literally, as the power company  turned off my electricity because I had not gotten the ridiculously high bill paid in full on time. That night, while sitting in the kitchen really late, in total darkness, a thought came to mind,when I lit a candle with three wicks, I realized that it was also the  same candle that was given to me not long ago by someone very special to me, during the occasion when I went without power for three days while I was moving to my new apartment. I had unconsciously lit two wicks of this candle, and it made me think about the person that gave me the candle.The epiphany of that and the intentions of why I got this candle from this one specific person was not lost on me. It was not just about the candle and what I was using it for, but also about the person that gave it to me. The candle was not only just my light in the darkness, it was also a physical representation of thoughts and feelings from the person who gave it to me. It made me think hard about the many times that we had been each other's light during times of darkness.. Two brightly burning wicks.. was reminiscent of a visual image of twin flames. I also noticed that when I tried to light the third wick on the candle that the third wick would not stay lit, the hot wax would just put out the third wick and only leave the other two burning.
Such a small thing.. yet also such a deeply meaningful and enlightening experience. You often don't see the light until you are sitting completely in the dark.  You sometimes don't really and truly realize what someone and something really means to you, and what a gift and a blessing they really are to your life until they are just not there anymore. Sometimes you have to be without them, or go without a certain something for awhile, and be in the dark without it, then something will happen to spark your conscious and make you realize and see the big picture for what it really is and not just what you would like to see. Just when you though the darkness was too much to endure..a spark of light appears to light the way.
The meaning I derived from the entire situation, as I sat there in very deep thought watching these two flames flicker and dance together,was that it may be during a sudden dark time in one or both of our lives before "two flames" will see each other and come together again, that even in the darkest of moments, only two flames will get to burn together, and another flame will be repeatedly put out and not be able to stay lit despite attempts being made at keeping it lit. Remember now, when I had three flames lit, and one kept being put out by the hot wax, and only two got to burn? Now my question remains is,what or whom does the third flame represent, what is the situation and who is the person that will not be able to stay "lit" and be repeatedly smothered out? That question has yet to be answered..I just hope it doesn't take another night of darkness before I see that answer come to light.    

Seeing Is Believing.. 8-22-2015

Remember the old phrase, "I'll believe it when I see it?" well sometimes I am guilty of having less that stout belief, conviction, and faith in certain things, I'm pretty realistic about a lot, and sometimes a bit of a skeptic, even though I am a strong spiritual person and I have strong beliefs.. We are all guilty of having doubts, suspicions, and even the occasional lack of faith in something happening, or that a situation may not manifest like we wish and hope for it to, especially when we are not being given clear answers and seeing solid signs of what we asked for is going to happen or not. I just have days where I have the thought. "Well when I actually see that it happens I will believe it."  and then something will happen to whack you in the head and make you pay attention. I had one of those moments recently, where I saw something spectacular that renewed my faith and hope in something that I have been having a bit of doubts and insecurity about whether or not it will happen. As Jeff Foxworthy and Bill Engvall  like to say "Here's your sign!"


A few days ago..me and my daughter walked down the street going to the pharmacy that is a 15 minute walk from my house. Where I live there is a long street of shops and convenience stores that are a few minutes walk down the street. On the way, we went past this shop that had been empty recently but now said "Botanica" and they were open for business, there was a middle aged lady sitting outside and the door was propped open, and I took a glance inside and saw what appeared to be a very cluttered shop that was not yet set up, and I told my daughter that we would visit soon when they had everything more set up and situated. What I did not mention to her was that I had a strong urge and I felt very drawn to go in the store and look around and there was something in there I needed to see or that I was going to find. I "had to" go into that shop.. and I said I will find out why soon enough.


A lot of Latino and South and Central American people that live in my town practice Santeria and various minority faiths, Saint Holy Death and various other saint figures are much venerated in their faith and practice. They have this wonderful blending of Catholic beliefs melded and mixed together with other types of practice and worship that has a fabulously strong vibe to it. "Brujera", or witches, both male and female, in their culture are much respected and also very feared. The shop owners keep their shops secluded and out of the way as there is a strong influence of the LDS and Baptist faiths here also. Best to keep yourself and your items to yourself so as to not draw undue attention.
 Now, everyone that reads my blogs, also has noticed that a particular spirit by name of St. Holy Death, seems to have some unusual interest in me and occasionally steps into my life to offer Her guidance and she sometimes does a favor for me when I ask. Despite the fact I am not a full fledged initiate of Santeria or the various offshoot branches of said practice, I do practice Hoodoo and eclectic Paganism, I found something strong in Her Holiness of Death that resonates with me in a way I still cannot fathom or fully explain, so I work with Her and She "likes" me enough to where it usually happens that when I ask a favor She will answer me most of the time. I consider that a very rare privilege! Not everyone can say with a certain confidence that Death is really and truly their "friend" in that sort of way!


For awhile now I have been struggling with a personal issue, how many days, weeks, months, or even years will I have to wait? When and how will I see this situation change or develop into a more positive and rewarding scenario? And if by chance it isn't meant to be.. then why not?
Well the other day my daughter and I went into this shop that I was drawn to and one walk through the little shelves and tiny cramped store and I am in love with everything they have in there. It is stocked floor to ceiling with every kind of 7 day candles, spell ingredients, anointing oils, and odds and ends that I could ever ask to find in one tiny shop. the poor shop owner needs a bigger store or to invest in a storage space! What caught my eyes and made me take in a huge breath of transfixed awe, was the massive and elaborate altar table made especially for Saint Holy Death. Decked out, fully dressed, and fabulously well maintained! It has to be the biggest dedication altar I have yet to see, a whole table set up with two huge 2 foot tall statues of Her, a vast array of candles, offerings, and incenses displayed all around Her and adorning Her. Their table makes my tiny dresser top space look insignificant and "cheap".
 Now I knew why I felt so compelled to go into that shop, that was what I needed to see, my sign, She was speaking to me, telling me to com and see Her. I am sure the shopkeeper was quite unsure what to think of me, I , by no means, was someone he would expect to see come into his shop, and he tried his hardest to be polite although he came off as a bit standoffish and slightly rude. I felt like he deliberately refused my credit and said cash only, and made a hurried gesture in checking out my purchases and was hoping I would just leave, although I feel that will soon change when he sees I will be a regular customer as I said I would soon become. Something about me set him on edge and made him uncomfortable and wary and I will soon find out what and why the next time I go visit. Saint Death will surely call to me again and bid me to come back and see Her soon enough!         
 

Paralleled Circumstances. 8-18-2015

Hi everyone and Bright Blessings Remember the post I made a couple weeks ago titled "Divine Irony"?? If you haven't read it then this post will not make a lot of sense, so I kindly suggest you please go back a few posts and read that one too.  Today while scrolling down through my old Facebook posts, I found a post I made on August 20th, 2014, that ironically parallels and coincides yet again to the same and similar situation I and someone else are going through yet again.. with the exception that I was the one initiated the changes and situations this time around,  instead of them.


This was what I was feeling and experiencing at that time period exactly a year ago...


I was  " Feeling Incomplete" at that time as I had not heard from my friend in weeks, same as now, and the past status reads as follows...


""You miss someone that you love and care about with a fierce and unfulfilled longing that will not disappear no matter what you do to ease it and nothing you do or try to do will make it disappear. You can't talk to or see them anymore, you feel like a piece of you is missing without them, and someone took a huge chunk out of your life where they used to be, like you're missing a hand or some important part of you that should be there. You think too much about all the great things that was once there and all the things you shared with them and how close you once were, and now its gone. You can't go near their house without wishing you could go see them, can't leave your house and actually go anywhere that you usually go, because they were with you there at least once and it's like these places have some memory of them attached to it. Leaving the house to go anywhere else makes you feel like you are somehow leaving them behind and then you want to hurry and go back home because being away from them makes you feel like you shouldn't be anywhere else or spending time with anyone else and being too far away from them makes you have the strong urge to hurry and leave and go back home. And being around other people and trying to do anything with them just aggravates and annoys you.You can't sleep because all you think about is the 1001 things that somehow have their name and memory attached to it. You try to spend time with other people and do other things that have nothing to do with and have no connection or memory with said person and somehow they are still on your mind and you catch yourself talking about them or something and someone catches your attention and then you think of them. Other people are asking you about them, and mention the fact that you don't talk about them anymore ,and ask if you have you seen or talked to them? Your phone rings or beeps and you hope they are on the line, and you have to make yourself scroll past the contact to keep from dialing or texting them. And you wonder if they feel the same as you and if they might be doing exactly what you are and are not doing??""  


And again this time around ..I find myself feeling incomplete.. not whole inside. I could write for days, weeks, maybe a month, about all the things I miss, every little tiny memory that flits into my mind, recall snippets and details that bring a pang of longing and bittersweet nostalgia, and I couldn't begin to scratch the surface. I know it does not serve well to dwell and wallow in such things. I am probably only torturing myself and over analyzing things a bit too much trying to find answers and something that makes clear sense. I have to work through this in order to get past it and move along with life. There is too many elusive and vague answers to a lot of questions and not having a concrete solid answer is not something I am comfortable or satisfied with. All I have heard for weeks since I moved is something along the lines of how much better my life will be without them and oh just as well since you are there and they are over yonder...really where and how it is even their place to project that negative idea? Good for you that you feel that way.Do you want a treat and a pat on the head now?  Another thing that really gets under my skin about this is when I try to find someone to talk to about this. I hear something similar to "They remind me of so and so and that situation and how they acted and treated you." And go bring up something and someone from the past that happened 10-15 years ago.. Perhaps yes a person's attitude, actions and behaviors may seem and appear to be the reminiscent or very similar to someone else's, and the situation may resemble one from the very long ago past, but let me sound off a huge reality check...sorry if caps lock offends or seems a bit over the top but seriously I have had quite more than enough of hearing this because it is very offensive and degrading towards me and the other person on the other end of this situation and it's a ginormous load of horse shite.  


THEY ARE NOT THAT PERSON!! THE SITUATION AND PEOPLE INVOLVED ARE NOT THE EXACT SAME!! I AM NOT THE PERSON FROM YEARS AGO AND NEITHER ARE THEY "JUST LIKE" OR REMOTELY SIMILAR TO THAT PERSON YOU SO FREELY COMPARE THEM TO!! THIS IS NOT THE PAST AND WE ARE NOT REPEATING IT! WHERE IS IT YOUR RIGHT AND PLACE TO COMPARE OR JUDGE?!! DID YOU ASCEND TO BIENG A HIGHER POWER RECENTLY?! GO LOOK IN YOUR OWN BLACKENED MIRROR AND LOOK VERY CLOSELY AT YOUR OWN  NEGATIVE FAULTS AND SHORTCOMINGS THAT YOU SO QUICKLY WANT TO SEE AND PROJECT ONTO  SOMEONE ELSE, AND WHY IT IS THAT YOU WANT TO GO BLAME AND JUDGE AND COMPARE THEM!!  THE ONLY REAL REASON YOU EVEN WANT TO DO THAT IS  BECAUSE THAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER INSIDE ABOUT YOURSELF AND IT IS A DISTRACTION AND A EXCUSE TO BLOW OFF AND TAKE AWAY FROM YOUR MISERABLE ISSUES AND PROBLEMS THAT YOU ARE NOT READY TO FACE DOWN OR CHANGE IN YOURSELF!! GO LOOK AT YOUR OWN ISSUES REALLY DAMNED HARD AND SEE WHERE AND HOW AND WHY IT REMINDS YOU OF YOURSELF, AND GO WORK ON FIXING AND CLEARING THAT UP THAT FIRST!! THE ONLY REASON YOU DO NOT LIKE THEM AND HAVE TO COMPARE AND JUDGE AND BRING UP CERTAIN THINGS IS BECAUSE THEIR SUPPOSED NEGATIVE TRAITS REMINDS YOU TOO MUCH OF YOURSELF AND WHAT YOU HAVE AND HAVE NOT DONE AND HOW YOU DID AND DID NOT ACT OR BEHAVE! THE POT DOES NOT GET TO CALL THE CAULDRON BLACK AND NO THAT IS NOT REMOTELY ACCEPTABLE OR FINE WITH ME! WHEN IT COMES TO THIS ONE PERSON, DO NOT GO THERE WITH ME AND MIND YOUR WORDS VERY WELL IN WHAT YOU SAY AND INSINUATE ABOUT THIS PERSON BECAUSE IF YOU INSULT AND DEGRADE THEM THEN YOU DO THE SAME TO ME AND  I WILL NOT TOLERATE IT ANYMORE!      


Yes I (and a certain guardian spirit) felt a strong need to shout that because there are a ridiculous amount of shat flinging people that keep giving me this attitude and keep bringing up the same thing over and over and I am extremely fed up with it!! We don't live in the past anymore and those people and situations from the past do not exist or hold any relevance to the here and now. That is water and blood under the bridge let it go and leave it be!! My guardian is very irritated, annoyed and agitated and it is very hard to keep that part of me in line else something dangerous and out of line was to occur. It's like trying to keep a very thin leash on a thrashing and snapping behemoth and the leash is unraveling very quickly!! I am going to go now..sorry everyone this wasn't a very cheerful post. I shall endeavor to do better next one I promise. Bright Blessings and have a great day! 

The Blue Moon report. 8-3-2015.

Hello and Bright Blessings!  I hope everyone had a fantastic Full Moon weekend? I did not get a chance to do any spells or ritual work as I was not home, instead I ended up spending the weekend with family away from home. School is due to start this week so I had to get some errands done before this coming Wednesday, that is the first day of school here. This coming weekend I plan to be out buying the rest of the supplies and other things we are going to need and maybe then I can sit down and relax?
I have been working on my books again, and when school starts back that will clear up a lot of free time for me to finish and publish my second book, as one really cannot write with so much distraction and noise! In the meantime, as I am finishing my second book, feel free to take a trip down The Darkened Path, The Journey Begins , the first book in the series, which is available in both print and Kindle versions. I will confidently say, that anyone that can read past the first chapter shall find themselves hanging precariously off the cliff side at the end, hoping for salvation!  I take a bit of pride in myself over that accomplishment, when I was a kid, I said one of the things I wanted to do was write and publish a book, and at that time I burned with a ambitious need for the entire the world to know who I was and what I was about!  J.K. Rowling was a further inspiration, she overcame a lot of personal upheaval and look where she is now in life! While I realistically realize that I may never actually get remotely near that sort of fame and worldly status..it is definitely something to ponder about as I slave away on Microsoft Word.  It is not too much to ask of the world to be able to live a simple life as a Pagan and a independent writer and have a decent amount of funds coming in every other month!
I also have plans to be getting back into my Amazon Associate work because I have severely neglected it, some inventory upgrades and store renovation will be done very soon! Before in the past I made rather skimpy and meager sales, so this year maybe I can revamp a few things and fire up the money making furnace!  I have a very small web store located at The Darkened Path Website  which displays my very personal and unique metaphysical items and recipes that I create and make by hand. I decided to make some of my strongest recipes for sale to the metaphysical community and the curious public. Every item listed is completely natural and contains no artificial or synthetic ingredients. The spell bags, jars, and other items are individually made by hand from my own workspace by request of the customer upon ordering. so if anyone sees something they need or want don't hesitate to drop me a line and let me see what kind of magic I can stir up for you!
I have to go for now my pets, a witches' work is never done and that definitely applies to this witch! Have a Blessed Day and I shall return soon!