Hello to all and Bright Blessings, I was busy on the New Moon and I had company visiting over that weekend and I never got a real chance to update until today, 11-28-2014. On this past New Moon I made time for a small spell, I asked for positive transformation to begin, and that negative situations become more positive and some problems and issues to be removed and for peace and harmony to come around. I will know in a few days if my request has been heard and granted, or not. Transformations take time, I may not see any serious changes until the Full Moon so until then I will keep watch for signs of anything coming to pass.
On the New Moon night I also made some white sage and mugwort herbal tea, the intent being to clear out and send away negative energy (mugwort) and provide both bodily and auric cleansing (sage). I felt like this needed to be done literally from the inside out and I wonder if this is also what made me feel very dried out Sunday when I woke up? Does anyone else have this effect when using mugwort? I just know that I woke up with really dry sinuses and skin and it was a bit itchy. The tea is bitter and astringent, the sage provides a minty, citrus taste but you still have to just suck it down, wash it down with a bit of a sweetened drink of some kind, and get it over with. A slightly bitter taste in your mouth can be remedied, it is the end result which matters most. As I have stated in the past, pregnant and nursing women should not ingest, inhale, or have serious contact with mugwort or any part of it's chemical properties as it can produce strong contractions or worse in the pregnancy and you can pass the herb's effect along into the breast milk to your child, of which effects in children have not been extensively studied or documented that I have found yet.
My Thanksgiving holiday was quiet, I went to a friend's house and stayed the night. We had a deer shoulder roast in lieu of turkey, as it seems turkey is prohibitively expensive this year. I am going to spend the rest of the weekend at home, I think I will do my shopping later when the madness of Black Friday has calmed down. I feel like I need more sleep and spending quiet time to myself seems like a better idea for the moment. I haven't wanted to socialize or see or talk to many people lately, and that seems to be the thing that a lot of other people around me seem to constantly want and need and it makes me feel physically and emotionally drained and exhausted. Today I made ginger cookies and like usual they turned into ginger pancakes in the pan but they were still good so never mind they were not perfect.
Until the Full Moon, which is on December 6,2014, I will be working on my transformation spell, visualizing what I want to see transformed and how I want the end result to be, and looking for signs of manifestation along the way. I will keep y'all posted as to what happens between here and then. I shall return..Blessed Be to All!
Friday, November 28, 2014
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
November 11,2014 New Book Published!
Hello to everyone and how has your week been thus far? I have been busy getting my book The Darkened Path Book 1: The Journey Begins published, at the moment I am waiting on it to be cleared for being uploaded to Amazon, there is only the print version available right this minute but be assured I am feverishly working on submitting the E-book version! I even forwent doing any spells or magical workings this past Full Moon because I was mad busy working on this. I have the second book in the series already started and 104 pages are written in that so far.
The Darkened Path series came into existence..by literally a dream I had about walking through a shadowed and ugly wooded path, and I was then standing in front of a dirty and old faded mirror being teased and taunted and screamed at by the things and people in my past that I longed to forget and move on from. Later in the same dream I was watching myself kneeled in a patch of dirt, writing words in a book with red (blood?) ink. I woke up the next morning, went to my computer and opened up the Word program, and started typing. Words poured into pages upon pages with memories of the past, discovering and learning about my empath and spiritual gifts, and all the things I have seen and heard and went through and done in my life for 28 years up until I moved into my apartment. I translated a massive eye opening vision onto paper, and I invite you all to see that dream by reading the book itself.
The end of book 1 sort of goes into a cliffhanger.. and then resumes again in book 2, because that time in my life was a huge and difficult transition from letting go of the past and then moving on into a new life, to become something more in myself and begin a transformation into what I needed to be inside and out for myself. That which was perhaps even designed and constructed by some Higher Power to begin with, as it even started with a surefire honest to Goddess blessing sent by The Goddess and God themselves just like I asked. The "ask and ye shall receive" idea definitely does manifest in ways that will renew faith and give hope when you need it the most.
I am going to go for the moment, lots of work to be doing, Bright Blessings everyone and I hope some of you will enjoy reading newest creation soon!
The Darkened Path series came into existence..by literally a dream I had about walking through a shadowed and ugly wooded path, and I was then standing in front of a dirty and old faded mirror being teased and taunted and screamed at by the things and people in my past that I longed to forget and move on from. Later in the same dream I was watching myself kneeled in a patch of dirt, writing words in a book with red (blood?) ink. I woke up the next morning, went to my computer and opened up the Word program, and started typing. Words poured into pages upon pages with memories of the past, discovering and learning about my empath and spiritual gifts, and all the things I have seen and heard and went through and done in my life for 28 years up until I moved into my apartment. I translated a massive eye opening vision onto paper, and I invite you all to see that dream by reading the book itself.
The end of book 1 sort of goes into a cliffhanger.. and then resumes again in book 2, because that time in my life was a huge and difficult transition from letting go of the past and then moving on into a new life, to become something more in myself and begin a transformation into what I needed to be inside and out for myself. That which was perhaps even designed and constructed by some Higher Power to begin with, as it even started with a surefire honest to Goddess blessing sent by The Goddess and God themselves just like I asked. The "ask and ye shall receive" idea definitely does manifest in ways that will renew faith and give hope when you need it the most.
I am going to go for the moment, lots of work to be doing, Bright Blessings everyone and I hope some of you will enjoy reading newest creation soon!
Thursday, November 6, 2014
Why I am a Pagan. Full Moon 11/6/2014.
Yesterday I was asked a very good question. "How did you end up being into witchcraft and magic, what led you into it and why do you practice it?" This was asked of me out of curiosity and a desire to grasp a concept of something they do not understand and they wanted to learn something about me and how it defines me as a person and why I think and believe as I do, and they are a opposite religion as me, but however they express a tolerance and acceptance for the fact I am a different faith than them. I am not judged by them nor am I less a person to them and they love me and try accept me as I am even if maybe they don't always agree with me on some things. Some people might consider this kind of questioning rude or disrespectful , I however saw the chance to enlighten and teach another person and now a few others about who I am as a person and how this path of mine has, and still does influence and shapes my life as a whole.
Why did I end up being a witch? Well that path I didn't originally pick for myself and I was not raised in the faith, I was born and raised into a Baptist family. The Pagan Path somewhat chose me, and it seems I was marked by a different form of God and Goddess or some other unknown deity before I was even born, thusly I was born into it and it was a part of me from the second I took a breath in the world. I even have a birthmark on my right arm that no one else in my family has or remember anyone else having. There were numerous signs that I was just not meant to be a Christian and that being a part of a organized faith and path was not meant to be my calling. One time I was taken to Sunday service and we were doing the communion wafer and wine ceremony, I started choking and strangling on the grape wine and wafer that stuck to my mouth like foul tasting glue and everyone in that church was looking at me like I was damned and condemned right there.. Never mind the fact I could have died on the floor from choking on a piece of bread as they weren't looking at that exactly. I was never taken back to that church again and I never went to any other church again after that. When I was 10 years old I had a preemptive, terrifying, and eye opening dream where I saw a family member fall down the barn stairs and it happened clearly as I saw it in the dream exactly two days later and I described this to another person on the phone down to the minutest detail, of which I was then asked in incredulous shock exactly how I could have possibly known about that because I was never there at all. When I opened my mouth and explained this idea then the people in my household at the time were giving me wary and angry glares, or refused to look me in the eyes and explain what this was about and why this was happening to me, they were not in the least impressed or happy about this revelation of mine. This was my first ever experience with clairvoyant dreams and I discovered much to my family's disapproval that this was not something they wanted to know or understand anything about. This so called "unacceptable" gift and sometimes curse has only become stronger and more prevalent in my life over the last 21years.
More signs came, I discovered I could sense and feel spiritual and emotional energies and that sometimes this energy would come to me and literally make itself known. I am one of those that can see, hear and perceive the presence of ghosts, spirits, and other types of energy, and I can read and sense other people's emotions, thoughts, feelings, sometimes I can feel the energy in a place or in a room especially if it has a strong presence or emotion attached to it, or is negative and has a darkness to it, I am sometimes affected by other's emotions and behaviors, and this has lead me into a life where I don't have many real friends and I am pretty reclusive and hermetic. I can very accurately make a observance of people, situations, and scenarios, and well just don't lie to me is all I can say, cause well you are just fooling yourself. I can spot something wrong even if you don't say a word and if you're hiding something well it wont take me long to figure out what it might be. Sometimes total strangers will just open up and talk to me like they are oddly compelled to suddenly spill their deepest darkest and strongest emotions. I can even spot something being hidden on a text, in a letter, and not even have to see or hear the person talking or be anywhere near them at all. How many times have I looked at someone a few minutes, opened my mouth, hit a nail dead center on its head, and had someone look at me like I am somehow a lunatic, they become scared, unnerved, uncomfortable and sometimes angry at the idea I could possibly have known something they probably haven't told anyone else or they were trying damn hard to hide it. I have only a few people who really respect and appreciate this gift of mine and actually praise and accept me for it.
How many times have I said something would or could possibly happen, and lo and behold it manifests into physical reality very shortly afterwards, again I am looked at and talked about like I am somehow mentally cracked and nothing I say or express can be believed or trusted even if proof is right there in front of their face.. well I told you already like two weeks ago this might happen or it will happen and I felt like it was going to happen and you didn't listen to me.. oh well.... I know how that curse of Cassandra must feel like now. Those of you that don't know..in Greek Mythology, Cassandra was the love interest of Apollo, he loved her so much and she rejected him , he had gifted her with the gift of prophesy but since he was rejected and scorned now the gift would come with the price being that whenever she spoke her prophesies and truths that no one would believe her. Tragically and ironically, Cassandra died alone, eventually being driven completely insane by grief and the tortures of knowing her truths would never be believed and to others she was nothing but a liar, con artist, and madwoman. The price and the sacrifices of divine knowledge is sometimes very heavy indeed. All types of us Mediums, Empaths, and Highly Sensitive type people are said to possibly descend from this woman according to some sources.
What led me to Paganism? Well the discovery that I was so obviously different, unacceptable, unnatural and many other negative terms, led me to find a way to make sense and have peace inside my tortured soul and mind about why I was not like everyone else in my house and those around me that were "normal". I wanted and craved acceptance and approval and acknowledgement from myself and from others. I wanted to find out what this thing was supposedly wrong about me and why people were looking at me like I was the devil incarnate and shying away from me like I had some kind of taint on me that would never come clean. It was made very clear to me that everything about me and the things I had a natural affinity for was the blackest of sins and it was supposed to be ignored, repressed, stamped out, washed clean, like I had some kind of filth and disease all over me and inside me that they couldn't stand or tolerate.
I was not allowed to even breathe a word of anything I saw or experienced, or to exhibit any kind of behavior in public or at home that would hint at the fact I was possibly unstable, needed mental therapy, or that I lived in a absurd and foolish fantasy world that no one believed in and the things I spoke about or acted out in any way was not to be displayed in any way, shape or form. I spent a lot of my younger years stewing in suppressed mental and physical misery and I stayed depressed, angry, and upset inside over this. I could see, hear, sense, feel, this wild and pulsing energy and presence that was alive and screaming at me to acknowledge it and I had to find some way to appease and satisfy both my need to understand myself and understand what was supposedly "wrong" with me. In my household and sometimes in public I felt oppressed, repressed, chained down, suffocated and denied something that was not going to be ignored and it wasn't just going to disappear just because others tried to pretend it wasn't there. Trying to make yourself be, act, and feel like something you are just not going to be is a disaster waiting to happen, and numerous occasions this pent up energy and frustration came busting out and showed itself in some not so fantastic displays of potentially dangerous manifestations of the stove eyes exploding, stuff catching fire, electrical appliances and light fixtures refusing to work or malfunctioning, one year a row of green beans I planted thrived and was pretty while the plants that my papaw planted withered and died like they were sick without any real explanation. This is reminiscent of poltergeist activity, and almost always the center of this activity is a female child that is going through some serious changes and no one is paying attention or trying to understand that.
I also discovered I loved to grow things, herbs, plants, flowers, anything green, I love rose bushes, sweet smelling flowers, and herbal plants, animals usually like me and sometimes even come to see me from nowhere as if I called them to me, this is usually a dog, cat, or something furry and four legged, I have 4 huge and healthy goldfish that probably should be dead by now but they are thriving in a cramped 10 gallon tank. I seriously need them a bigger tank or a new home soon! There's a one specific crow living in my neighborhood that sends out a loud and raucous greeting every time it sees me outside anywhere and I find perfect glossy black crow feathers a lot down here on the lawns. Sometimes babies and little kids exhibit a strong fascination and need to be around me, small babies have immediately quit crying and fusing the second they see me or even just fall asleep if I am holding them. I am unusually "charming" and give off a strangely attractive, and interesting vibe to the opposite sex, I cant walk 15 minutes to the store without being asked at least once by strange men if I need a ride anywhere. this gets annoying after awhile. I have seen much more beautiful women than me..so yeah I got some interesting attractive mojo going on!!
Why do I practice this path? One day in my teen years I was about 16 I suppose, after several hundred so called unnatural, abnormal and unaccepted incidents, happenings, and I got into high school, I had a few friends that occasionally talked about and discussed things about paganism, witchcraft, and other topics, and I was magnetically pulled and drawn like a moth to a raging bonfire, and I borrowed a book one day from a close friend and I started reading into it and the more I read it clicked like a missing puzzle piece in my brain and I was overcame with a immense excitement, and overwhelming peace and joy in myself..this was what I wanted, needed, craved, and had been searching for!! It all made perfect, logical, clear cut sense to me like I had just had my eyes and brain opened and saw a whole new world that had not been there before and I began to devour every piece of information I could find from every available source I could get it from.
One particular incident stands out clearly in my mind..one day a note was taken from one of my friends in class, of which we had been discussing witchcraft and other related topics and planning to have a weekend to ourselves to hang out and maybe test out a few theories, and of course so I could learn some more without being discovered. Her mom was a pagan, she had tons upon tons of information she was willing to share with me. So anyways this note of ours was snatched away by the teacher and after she decided to read it to the whole class it landed on the desk of the assistant principle who so happened to be a deacon of his church, I and my friend were expelled from school for two days as punishment. One for passing notes and two for discussing a religious topic in a "religiously neutral setting". Um yeah that was really the whole reason we were actually expelled as if we didn't know that already... the whole time he was discussing this with our families I thought he was about to pass out or have a coronary. My family members I was living with at the time were beyond furious I would shame and ridicule them in front of someone like a deacon of the church and on top of that get myself expelled and I was again forced conform and mold myself to something that made me miserable and unhappy and almost sick inside. I was also never allowed to see the inside of my friends house ever again after that.
While I was careful for a long time to never exhibit or display anything outwardly concerning my newfound path or my interest in it, I was at least able to find and cultivate some inner happiness and I was finally on a path that made sense and at least spiritually inside and I was able to cope with it all a lot better, knowing I had a explanation and something to find comfort and solace in. I did not dive full force into seriously practicing anything related to witchcraft or paganism until I was in my 20s, by this time I as married and moved to another state and my then husband was ok with the fact that I wanted to try out and experience new things and learn about myself as a person and what I was capable of and what I could really do with myself. And when I dig my hands into herbs, candle making supplies, making oils, powders, tinctures, and other crafts, I feel whole inside. I am accomplishing something, I am manifesting and growing into truest and most pure form of myself and what I am and was meant to be, I am being what I know I am inside and learning and growing into something beautiful and strong. I am empowered unto myself. Making crafts, learning and casting new spells and studying different kinds of practices, brings me personal fulfillment in ways I cant really describe. I know now there wasn't and never will be anything "wrong" with me.
I am something beautiful and perfect in my own way that others prove that they are not sometimes and I have found out that I am a lot better person morally and spiritually than a lot of people I know that claim to be living a "right" way. I have seen people that claim to be living "right", and they very often prove that they are liars, hypocrites, judgmental, cruel, spiteful, jealous, hateful, and many other negative things, they hurt others and make others miserable, under the idea they are "right" and what they believe and do and say is "right". They will even let their own negativity interfere with and make attempts to destroy and wreck relationships and find ways to get this to happen if they think and feel it is right or better for you or others. If I am "wrong" or something have said or done is "wrong" then let my Creator tell me that when I finally reach the point where my deeds and actions and words have to be weighed in on as to whether or not I get to be blessed and receive my reward or I am damned and condemned to be punished in whatever form of "Hell" or the underworld I am seen to be needing to go to. Either way it goes I will accept that, and learn from my possible mistakes and become a better person in the next life when I get to that bridge. Until then I am only as guilty as the next sinner and only as righteous as the next saint.
I am going to be 32 soon, in January, it has taken me a long time to finally find myself inside as a person and as a spiritual self, and I am still learning and growing and becoming that person. I follow a path that is older than time itself and older than most recorded civilizations itself, long before any organized faith came into existence, the Pagan path and people like me existed and were considered leaders, teachers, holy, powerful, strong, beautiful, and even worshipped as a living and breathing walking form of a Goddess, God or divine form of a deity, we sometimes become the mouthpiece of the Goddess and God, given a task that means we are to see and speak the truths of the world and everything in it, even those truths that are ugly and sometimes not pleasant to look at or examine and people want to hide them away, , even if there are some that will never believe that or they scoff and ridicule that, well let them see and know in their own time. We are sometimes the inspiration of what true and pure love is and what real acceptance, trust, loyalty and happiness is, we are sometimes the forbearer of sickness, calamity, injury, strife, famine, war, there must be a bringer and messenger of that too, there is no Light without Darkness to balance and bring it into existence. I am both the Light, and I can also be the Darkness, sometimes I can be in between and sometimes that is what is needed. And that is what I am and what I will continue to be and no one and nothing can take that from me or change it.
I could go on and on and continue this discussion but I think I answered the questions set before me well enough and others can interpret these answers as they see fit and believe and think what they will. I am going to go for now and Bright Blessings to everyone.
Why did I end up being a witch? Well that path I didn't originally pick for myself and I was not raised in the faith, I was born and raised into a Baptist family. The Pagan Path somewhat chose me, and it seems I was marked by a different form of God and Goddess or some other unknown deity before I was even born, thusly I was born into it and it was a part of me from the second I took a breath in the world. I even have a birthmark on my right arm that no one else in my family has or remember anyone else having. There were numerous signs that I was just not meant to be a Christian and that being a part of a organized faith and path was not meant to be my calling. One time I was taken to Sunday service and we were doing the communion wafer and wine ceremony, I started choking and strangling on the grape wine and wafer that stuck to my mouth like foul tasting glue and everyone in that church was looking at me like I was damned and condemned right there.. Never mind the fact I could have died on the floor from choking on a piece of bread as they weren't looking at that exactly. I was never taken back to that church again and I never went to any other church again after that. When I was 10 years old I had a preemptive, terrifying, and eye opening dream where I saw a family member fall down the barn stairs and it happened clearly as I saw it in the dream exactly two days later and I described this to another person on the phone down to the minutest detail, of which I was then asked in incredulous shock exactly how I could have possibly known about that because I was never there at all. When I opened my mouth and explained this idea then the people in my household at the time were giving me wary and angry glares, or refused to look me in the eyes and explain what this was about and why this was happening to me, they were not in the least impressed or happy about this revelation of mine. This was my first ever experience with clairvoyant dreams and I discovered much to my family's disapproval that this was not something they wanted to know or understand anything about. This so called "unacceptable" gift and sometimes curse has only become stronger and more prevalent in my life over the last 21years.
More signs came, I discovered I could sense and feel spiritual and emotional energies and that sometimes this energy would come to me and literally make itself known. I am one of those that can see, hear and perceive the presence of ghosts, spirits, and other types of energy, and I can read and sense other people's emotions, thoughts, feelings, sometimes I can feel the energy in a place or in a room especially if it has a strong presence or emotion attached to it, or is negative and has a darkness to it, I am sometimes affected by other's emotions and behaviors, and this has lead me into a life where I don't have many real friends and I am pretty reclusive and hermetic. I can very accurately make a observance of people, situations, and scenarios, and well just don't lie to me is all I can say, cause well you are just fooling yourself. I can spot something wrong even if you don't say a word and if you're hiding something well it wont take me long to figure out what it might be. Sometimes total strangers will just open up and talk to me like they are oddly compelled to suddenly spill their deepest darkest and strongest emotions. I can even spot something being hidden on a text, in a letter, and not even have to see or hear the person talking or be anywhere near them at all. How many times have I looked at someone a few minutes, opened my mouth, hit a nail dead center on its head, and had someone look at me like I am somehow a lunatic, they become scared, unnerved, uncomfortable and sometimes angry at the idea I could possibly have known something they probably haven't told anyone else or they were trying damn hard to hide it. I have only a few people who really respect and appreciate this gift of mine and actually praise and accept me for it.
How many times have I said something would or could possibly happen, and lo and behold it manifests into physical reality very shortly afterwards, again I am looked at and talked about like I am somehow mentally cracked and nothing I say or express can be believed or trusted even if proof is right there in front of their face.. well I told you already like two weeks ago this might happen or it will happen and I felt like it was going to happen and you didn't listen to me.. oh well.... I know how that curse of Cassandra must feel like now. Those of you that don't know..in Greek Mythology, Cassandra was the love interest of Apollo, he loved her so much and she rejected him , he had gifted her with the gift of prophesy but since he was rejected and scorned now the gift would come with the price being that whenever she spoke her prophesies and truths that no one would believe her. Tragically and ironically, Cassandra died alone, eventually being driven completely insane by grief and the tortures of knowing her truths would never be believed and to others she was nothing but a liar, con artist, and madwoman. The price and the sacrifices of divine knowledge is sometimes very heavy indeed. All types of us Mediums, Empaths, and Highly Sensitive type people are said to possibly descend from this woman according to some sources.
What led me to Paganism? Well the discovery that I was so obviously different, unacceptable, unnatural and many other negative terms, led me to find a way to make sense and have peace inside my tortured soul and mind about why I was not like everyone else in my house and those around me that were "normal". I wanted and craved acceptance and approval and acknowledgement from myself and from others. I wanted to find out what this thing was supposedly wrong about me and why people were looking at me like I was the devil incarnate and shying away from me like I had some kind of taint on me that would never come clean. It was made very clear to me that everything about me and the things I had a natural affinity for was the blackest of sins and it was supposed to be ignored, repressed, stamped out, washed clean, like I had some kind of filth and disease all over me and inside me that they couldn't stand or tolerate.
I was not allowed to even breathe a word of anything I saw or experienced, or to exhibit any kind of behavior in public or at home that would hint at the fact I was possibly unstable, needed mental therapy, or that I lived in a absurd and foolish fantasy world that no one believed in and the things I spoke about or acted out in any way was not to be displayed in any way, shape or form. I spent a lot of my younger years stewing in suppressed mental and physical misery and I stayed depressed, angry, and upset inside over this. I could see, hear, sense, feel, this wild and pulsing energy and presence that was alive and screaming at me to acknowledge it and I had to find some way to appease and satisfy both my need to understand myself and understand what was supposedly "wrong" with me. In my household and sometimes in public I felt oppressed, repressed, chained down, suffocated and denied something that was not going to be ignored and it wasn't just going to disappear just because others tried to pretend it wasn't there. Trying to make yourself be, act, and feel like something you are just not going to be is a disaster waiting to happen, and numerous occasions this pent up energy and frustration came busting out and showed itself in some not so fantastic displays of potentially dangerous manifestations of the stove eyes exploding, stuff catching fire, electrical appliances and light fixtures refusing to work or malfunctioning, one year a row of green beans I planted thrived and was pretty while the plants that my papaw planted withered and died like they were sick without any real explanation. This is reminiscent of poltergeist activity, and almost always the center of this activity is a female child that is going through some serious changes and no one is paying attention or trying to understand that.
I also discovered I loved to grow things, herbs, plants, flowers, anything green, I love rose bushes, sweet smelling flowers, and herbal plants, animals usually like me and sometimes even come to see me from nowhere as if I called them to me, this is usually a dog, cat, or something furry and four legged, I have 4 huge and healthy goldfish that probably should be dead by now but they are thriving in a cramped 10 gallon tank. I seriously need them a bigger tank or a new home soon! There's a one specific crow living in my neighborhood that sends out a loud and raucous greeting every time it sees me outside anywhere and I find perfect glossy black crow feathers a lot down here on the lawns. Sometimes babies and little kids exhibit a strong fascination and need to be around me, small babies have immediately quit crying and fusing the second they see me or even just fall asleep if I am holding them. I am unusually "charming" and give off a strangely attractive, and interesting vibe to the opposite sex, I cant walk 15 minutes to the store without being asked at least once by strange men if I need a ride anywhere. this gets annoying after awhile. I have seen much more beautiful women than me..so yeah I got some interesting attractive mojo going on!!
Why do I practice this path? One day in my teen years I was about 16 I suppose, after several hundred so called unnatural, abnormal and unaccepted incidents, happenings, and I got into high school, I had a few friends that occasionally talked about and discussed things about paganism, witchcraft, and other topics, and I was magnetically pulled and drawn like a moth to a raging bonfire, and I borrowed a book one day from a close friend and I started reading into it and the more I read it clicked like a missing puzzle piece in my brain and I was overcame with a immense excitement, and overwhelming peace and joy in myself..this was what I wanted, needed, craved, and had been searching for!! It all made perfect, logical, clear cut sense to me like I had just had my eyes and brain opened and saw a whole new world that had not been there before and I began to devour every piece of information I could find from every available source I could get it from.
One particular incident stands out clearly in my mind..one day a note was taken from one of my friends in class, of which we had been discussing witchcraft and other related topics and planning to have a weekend to ourselves to hang out and maybe test out a few theories, and of course so I could learn some more without being discovered. Her mom was a pagan, she had tons upon tons of information she was willing to share with me. So anyways this note of ours was snatched away by the teacher and after she decided to read it to the whole class it landed on the desk of the assistant principle who so happened to be a deacon of his church, I and my friend were expelled from school for two days as punishment. One for passing notes and two for discussing a religious topic in a "religiously neutral setting". Um yeah that was really the whole reason we were actually expelled as if we didn't know that already... the whole time he was discussing this with our families I thought he was about to pass out or have a coronary. My family members I was living with at the time were beyond furious I would shame and ridicule them in front of someone like a deacon of the church and on top of that get myself expelled and I was again forced conform and mold myself to something that made me miserable and unhappy and almost sick inside. I was also never allowed to see the inside of my friends house ever again after that.
While I was careful for a long time to never exhibit or display anything outwardly concerning my newfound path or my interest in it, I was at least able to find and cultivate some inner happiness and I was finally on a path that made sense and at least spiritually inside and I was able to cope with it all a lot better, knowing I had a explanation and something to find comfort and solace in. I did not dive full force into seriously practicing anything related to witchcraft or paganism until I was in my 20s, by this time I as married and moved to another state and my then husband was ok with the fact that I wanted to try out and experience new things and learn about myself as a person and what I was capable of and what I could really do with myself. And when I dig my hands into herbs, candle making supplies, making oils, powders, tinctures, and other crafts, I feel whole inside. I am accomplishing something, I am manifesting and growing into truest and most pure form of myself and what I am and was meant to be, I am being what I know I am inside and learning and growing into something beautiful and strong. I am empowered unto myself. Making crafts, learning and casting new spells and studying different kinds of practices, brings me personal fulfillment in ways I cant really describe. I know now there wasn't and never will be anything "wrong" with me.
I am something beautiful and perfect in my own way that others prove that they are not sometimes and I have found out that I am a lot better person morally and spiritually than a lot of people I know that claim to be living a "right" way. I have seen people that claim to be living "right", and they very often prove that they are liars, hypocrites, judgmental, cruel, spiteful, jealous, hateful, and many other negative things, they hurt others and make others miserable, under the idea they are "right" and what they believe and do and say is "right". They will even let their own negativity interfere with and make attempts to destroy and wreck relationships and find ways to get this to happen if they think and feel it is right or better for you or others. If I am "wrong" or something have said or done is "wrong" then let my Creator tell me that when I finally reach the point where my deeds and actions and words have to be weighed in on as to whether or not I get to be blessed and receive my reward or I am damned and condemned to be punished in whatever form of "Hell" or the underworld I am seen to be needing to go to. Either way it goes I will accept that, and learn from my possible mistakes and become a better person in the next life when I get to that bridge. Until then I am only as guilty as the next sinner and only as righteous as the next saint.
I am going to be 32 soon, in January, it has taken me a long time to finally find myself inside as a person and as a spiritual self, and I am still learning and growing and becoming that person. I follow a path that is older than time itself and older than most recorded civilizations itself, long before any organized faith came into existence, the Pagan path and people like me existed and were considered leaders, teachers, holy, powerful, strong, beautiful, and even worshipped as a living and breathing walking form of a Goddess, God or divine form of a deity, we sometimes become the mouthpiece of the Goddess and God, given a task that means we are to see and speak the truths of the world and everything in it, even those truths that are ugly and sometimes not pleasant to look at or examine and people want to hide them away, , even if there are some that will never believe that or they scoff and ridicule that, well let them see and know in their own time. We are sometimes the inspiration of what true and pure love is and what real acceptance, trust, loyalty and happiness is, we are sometimes the forbearer of sickness, calamity, injury, strife, famine, war, there must be a bringer and messenger of that too, there is no Light without Darkness to balance and bring it into existence. I am both the Light, and I can also be the Darkness, sometimes I can be in between and sometimes that is what is needed. And that is what I am and what I will continue to be and no one and nothing can take that from me or change it.
I could go on and on and continue this discussion but I think I answered the questions set before me well enough and others can interpret these answers as they see fit and believe and think what they will. I am going to go for now and Bright Blessings to everyone.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Sunday 10-19-2014. Healing and Cleansing in progress...
Hello to all and how is everyone? I have to say I am slowly recovering from a massive sinus /ear infection that has given me a right fit for the last few days. Right after we had that last huge rain come through my area I woke up to badly inflamed sinuses that went straight to my left ear which is prone to getting fluid build up and inflammation. I had chronic infections in the left side when I was a kid. The last five days I have either been asleep or barraging my sinuses and throat with various home remedies such as salt water, Echinacea tea, Eucalyptus leaf with honey and lemon tea, migraine medicine, and chicken noodle soup and various water based clear liquids, to get my head to clear. I feel ok so long as my head is cleared out and I can get the disgusting amounts of crud to come loose, yeah I know that is gross but if I don't get it to come clean out of my head and throat I will just be worse off and end up possibly going to the Dr. for tests and stronger medicines and I hate Dr. offices or hospitals where they stick you with needles, poke around and prod you and ask annoying questions and run 10 kinds of tests and make you take medicine that is artificially made. Why do all of that when I can just heal myself and do exactly what they would do and more naturally?
Yesterday finally I could breathe and the fluid in my ear is going down, but my left tonsil is still infected. Somehow I still have the energy, or just plain stubborn willfulness, to make myself take the 15 minute walk to the store, the nice autumn air feels good after being shut in for days, and then I came home yesterday from my brief outing I managed to clean the house and bomb my bedroom with a small cleansing ritual, which is where I have spent most of my time sick, I even stripped the bed and washed everything. Then I went straight through the house with the industrial strength antiseptic cleaner and whole house is getting blasted with a ritual cleansing to make sure the gross feeling negative energy is gone when I feel I have enough serious energy to do it right.. You can't really do magic or rituals when you are sick because your energy and defenses aren't up to par and it will not work out like you intend for it to.
I find it odd I was perfectly fine last Thursday, and then Friday morning came and after that I was 10 kinds of miserable and unable to do anything but make myself take medicine, slurp down a bit of scalding hot soup and liquids, and pass out cold asleep. My son is not sick either and at some point over the weekend I hazily remember taking a shower and today I really worked on the skin scrubbing because I felt like I had grime glued to my skin and hair. I am not the person that just suddenly comes down sick out of the blue sky either and I noticed when I woke up on the third day enough to notice anything normally that my house has a strange smell to it like it has been shut up and neglected too long and every room of the house feels contaminated with some unseen residue like someone or something took buckets of slimy crud and plastered the walls and everything with it. Imagine a huge slug crawling and leaving its slime trail everywhere that is the impression I got when I woke up this morning. The slimy gross vibe on me and in my house has to go and when I have enough viable energy to devote to a strong cleansing the negative vibe is going to be dynamited away.
I will update again soon, the New Moon is coming on Thursday, it is a partial solar eclipse and I really hope something good happens in the next couple days!! Bright Blessings to Everyone and I shall return!!
Yesterday finally I could breathe and the fluid in my ear is going down, but my left tonsil is still infected. Somehow I still have the energy, or just plain stubborn willfulness, to make myself take the 15 minute walk to the store, the nice autumn air feels good after being shut in for days, and then I came home yesterday from my brief outing I managed to clean the house and bomb my bedroom with a small cleansing ritual, which is where I have spent most of my time sick, I even stripped the bed and washed everything. Then I went straight through the house with the industrial strength antiseptic cleaner and whole house is getting blasted with a ritual cleansing to make sure the gross feeling negative energy is gone when I feel I have enough serious energy to do it right.. You can't really do magic or rituals when you are sick because your energy and defenses aren't up to par and it will not work out like you intend for it to.
I find it odd I was perfectly fine last Thursday, and then Friday morning came and after that I was 10 kinds of miserable and unable to do anything but make myself take medicine, slurp down a bit of scalding hot soup and liquids, and pass out cold asleep. My son is not sick either and at some point over the weekend I hazily remember taking a shower and today I really worked on the skin scrubbing because I felt like I had grime glued to my skin and hair. I am not the person that just suddenly comes down sick out of the blue sky either and I noticed when I woke up on the third day enough to notice anything normally that my house has a strange smell to it like it has been shut up and neglected too long and every room of the house feels contaminated with some unseen residue like someone or something took buckets of slimy crud and plastered the walls and everything with it. Imagine a huge slug crawling and leaving its slime trail everywhere that is the impression I got when I woke up this morning. The slimy gross vibe on me and in my house has to go and when I have enough viable energy to devote to a strong cleansing the negative vibe is going to be dynamited away.
I will update again soon, the New Moon is coming on Thursday, it is a partial solar eclipse and I really hope something good happens in the next couple days!! Bright Blessings to Everyone and I shall return!!
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Sunday 10-12- 2014 Nightmares or Personal Haunting? Please read, share, and comment!
So did anyone see the eclipse we had recently ? I missed it, much to my annoyance it has done nothing but rain here for days and that morning it was clouded over and I couldn't see anything. Today I got drenched walking to the store,and walking into the store looking like a drowned cat is seriously not my thing!! I have not done any spell work or anything recently, I really haven't felt up to it, my energy just feels low and I also have ridiculous amounts of other errands to keep track of and I get something done and still have 20 other things to finish, so can we say frazzled?! I am also stressing about the lack of spare finances at the moment, every half a penny I have is going to bills that I almost can't pay and nothing else and I feel very strapped. Goddess and God could bless me with some full time work and I would be very grateful right now!
Anyways, onto witchy matters, Samhain is coming and the veil is thinning, how many of us have had increased instances of enhanced sensitive awareness via dreams, scrying, divinatory practices, and spiritual or "paranormal" activity? Here we have had some lightning storms and that is known to stir up energy that spirits, ghosts, and other entities can use to manifest their presence into the living side of the veil. Myself being a Highly Sensitive Person, I have noticed a strong change in the spiritual atmosphere here at home and other places I have been, I always get that scalp tingling sensation and all of my internal sensors perk up when I know something or someone is roaming around. As we approach Samhain, the veil is going to become wide open and we will see, feel, and experience all types of things that go bump in the dark! One of my personal Samhain observances is that I make a point to set up my scrying and divination tools, set up a small altar made specifically to honor and invite spirits into my space, a ritual offering is usually set up on a side table and somewhere in the room I set up a voice recorder. This is the best night in all the world to do paranormal investigating!! I am a huge fan of the "Ghost Hunters" show. Conducting my own experiences with the paranormal is a side hobby of mine and every year on Halloween I do some kind of ritual work and do a bit of paranormal investigating. To date I have not actually captured any voices on the recorder but I have heard noises and other forms of contact and have had the experience of strong awareness of spirits in my immediate space, I have been touched and I have seen a few things that were definitely not my imagination! Woe is me I do not own a good video recorder yet!! You're about to find out why I need one in a minute....
However this year is going to be different, I am taking my son out with some friends to a few neighborhoods for candy and a bit of fun, and I am going to leave the ritual table and scrying tools set up and the sound recorder running while I am gone until I get home, I am very curious to see if anything happens while I am gone for a few hours. I might strategically set up one of my phones to act as a video recorder to see if that will get me anything. Why am I doing this you ask? Well I have had this issue going on with my son who is 12, as of May 2014, he has abandoned his bedroom entirely claiming up and down with vehement unwavering conviction that there is someone or something in his bedroom at night while he is trying to sleep, and according to him, only person can see or hear it is him. Trying to get him to conquer his near paralyzing anxiety and fear of sleeping in his own bed again is near impossible, and all attempts of mine to get him to sleep in there results in screaming, crying, and complete emotional meltdowns from him and I have tried everything I know to get him over it. I have tried blessing and cleansing the room twice, cleaning every surface ceiling to floor, rearranging the furniture, and everything I can think of, he still refuses point blank to sleep in there.
I hesitate to involve any other outside sources of help at the moment, firstly my "family" is of no help or support, the first thing I was accused of was "conjuring something" in my house and I got this evil eyed glare and finger pointing so the guilt and blame was centered on me as if I somehow have something to do with it, this really did not help considering my son was listening to the whole conversation I was having with them at the time and of course he was then inclined to believe them over me, and looking at me with doubt, suspicion and skepticism that anything that I was going to do and the fact I am a witch was not going to help him and yes that really hurt my feelings. Oh sure try and destroy and belittle my own child's faith in me to protect him. Let me say now for the record that I really and truly despise and detest Baptists and all forms of so called high and mighty "Christian" faith, or at least those that want to sit there and slander, berate and demonize their own family and make problems ten times worse than what it should be. There are probably great people that are of Christian faith but to this day I have not met one at least where I live anyways. The "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live" mentality is alive and well here. I really don't want the local clergy of any kind involved and there isn't many people I know that shares my of spiritual practice or beliefs that I can ask right this minute to help me out. Now the only thing I know to do is set up the recorders and other things, and start investigating a bit to see what, if anything, is really going on. I am reserving a final judgment and opinion on the whole matter until I see or experience proof with my own 6 senses that what my child is possibly experiencing is really and truly bona fide there and not just a wild conjuration of a overactive imagination and somehow he has scared himself silly. I can actually say for a 100% fact that hat he is experiencing is truth or not yet, so I am maintaining a bit of healthy practical common sense and grounded realistic views of this right now.
The supposed person, entity, ghost, spirit, or what or whomever is bothering him, apparently stands next to his bed, breathes audibly, shuffles around the room, moves the bedcovers, and lurks in the doorway. I personally feel and sense nothing in the room when I go in there either during the day or nighttime for anything. However my poor kid is utterly convinced there is something in there that is going to get him if he so much as goes near his bed at night. He claims if I enter the room "it" leaves, and when I leave the room it comes back in, there has yet to be a form or shape described of what this thing or person may be, just the overwhelming sense that there is something there with him and it seriously unnerves him and terrifies him to the point of where he will sit hunkered in the floor and bawl his eyes out at the idea of having to sleep in there. We did not ever have this problem up until May 2014. He started coming into my room crying and very upset claiming that something was in there, this isn't something he has ever done while we have lived here. The only other time he has done something like this was when he was two years old and we had just moved into a new house and he had horrible screaming nightmares that he couldn't describe because he couldn't talk well then and eventually it subsided and disappeared. But for the 3 1/2 years we have lived here in our apartment he has slept in his bed, gone to bed on time and slept through the night, no problems whatsoever up until May. I am not yet sure if he has had a very upsetting nightmare, or something has actually happened in there to scare the wits out of him and he refuses to confront this or have any self power over it himself to help himself conquer his problem, I realize his refusal to face down his fear is not helping and is only exaggerating the issue and he is refusing to listen to me about anything to do with it, he would rather sit there and allow it to be what it is, block it out, ignore it, and just not sleep in his bed at all, and I have to say this is frustrating for me both as a spiritual practitioner and as a parent. Anyone that may know of ways to help me out with this or can refer me to someone that has more experience with this I would gladly appreciate hearing about it, I am open to any and all suggestions that I haven't yet tried. Goodnight everyone and Bright Blessings!
Anyways, onto witchy matters, Samhain is coming and the veil is thinning, how many of us have had increased instances of enhanced sensitive awareness via dreams, scrying, divinatory practices, and spiritual or "paranormal" activity? Here we have had some lightning storms and that is known to stir up energy that spirits, ghosts, and other entities can use to manifest their presence into the living side of the veil. Myself being a Highly Sensitive Person, I have noticed a strong change in the spiritual atmosphere here at home and other places I have been, I always get that scalp tingling sensation and all of my internal sensors perk up when I know something or someone is roaming around. As we approach Samhain, the veil is going to become wide open and we will see, feel, and experience all types of things that go bump in the dark! One of my personal Samhain observances is that I make a point to set up my scrying and divination tools, set up a small altar made specifically to honor and invite spirits into my space, a ritual offering is usually set up on a side table and somewhere in the room I set up a voice recorder. This is the best night in all the world to do paranormal investigating!! I am a huge fan of the "Ghost Hunters" show. Conducting my own experiences with the paranormal is a side hobby of mine and every year on Halloween I do some kind of ritual work and do a bit of paranormal investigating. To date I have not actually captured any voices on the recorder but I have heard noises and other forms of contact and have had the experience of strong awareness of spirits in my immediate space, I have been touched and I have seen a few things that were definitely not my imagination! Woe is me I do not own a good video recorder yet!! You're about to find out why I need one in a minute....
However this year is going to be different, I am taking my son out with some friends to a few neighborhoods for candy and a bit of fun, and I am going to leave the ritual table and scrying tools set up and the sound recorder running while I am gone until I get home, I am very curious to see if anything happens while I am gone for a few hours. I might strategically set up one of my phones to act as a video recorder to see if that will get me anything. Why am I doing this you ask? Well I have had this issue going on with my son who is 12, as of May 2014, he has abandoned his bedroom entirely claiming up and down with vehement unwavering conviction that there is someone or something in his bedroom at night while he is trying to sleep, and according to him, only person can see or hear it is him. Trying to get him to conquer his near paralyzing anxiety and fear of sleeping in his own bed again is near impossible, and all attempts of mine to get him to sleep in there results in screaming, crying, and complete emotional meltdowns from him and I have tried everything I know to get him over it. I have tried blessing and cleansing the room twice, cleaning every surface ceiling to floor, rearranging the furniture, and everything I can think of, he still refuses point blank to sleep in there.
I hesitate to involve any other outside sources of help at the moment, firstly my "family" is of no help or support, the first thing I was accused of was "conjuring something" in my house and I got this evil eyed glare and finger pointing so the guilt and blame was centered on me as if I somehow have something to do with it, this really did not help considering my son was listening to the whole conversation I was having with them at the time and of course he was then inclined to believe them over me, and looking at me with doubt, suspicion and skepticism that anything that I was going to do and the fact I am a witch was not going to help him and yes that really hurt my feelings. Oh sure try and destroy and belittle my own child's faith in me to protect him. Let me say now for the record that I really and truly despise and detest Baptists and all forms of so called high and mighty "Christian" faith, or at least those that want to sit there and slander, berate and demonize their own family and make problems ten times worse than what it should be. There are probably great people that are of Christian faith but to this day I have not met one at least where I live anyways. The "Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live" mentality is alive and well here. I really don't want the local clergy of any kind involved and there isn't many people I know that shares my of spiritual practice or beliefs that I can ask right this minute to help me out. Now the only thing I know to do is set up the recorders and other things, and start investigating a bit to see what, if anything, is really going on. I am reserving a final judgment and opinion on the whole matter until I see or experience proof with my own 6 senses that what my child is possibly experiencing is really and truly bona fide there and not just a wild conjuration of a overactive imagination and somehow he has scared himself silly. I can actually say for a 100% fact that hat he is experiencing is truth or not yet, so I am maintaining a bit of healthy practical common sense and grounded realistic views of this right now.
The supposed person, entity, ghost, spirit, or what or whomever is bothering him, apparently stands next to his bed, breathes audibly, shuffles around the room, moves the bedcovers, and lurks in the doorway. I personally feel and sense nothing in the room when I go in there either during the day or nighttime for anything. However my poor kid is utterly convinced there is something in there that is going to get him if he so much as goes near his bed at night. He claims if I enter the room "it" leaves, and when I leave the room it comes back in, there has yet to be a form or shape described of what this thing or person may be, just the overwhelming sense that there is something there with him and it seriously unnerves him and terrifies him to the point of where he will sit hunkered in the floor and bawl his eyes out at the idea of having to sleep in there. We did not ever have this problem up until May 2014. He started coming into my room crying and very upset claiming that something was in there, this isn't something he has ever done while we have lived here. The only other time he has done something like this was when he was two years old and we had just moved into a new house and he had horrible screaming nightmares that he couldn't describe because he couldn't talk well then and eventually it subsided and disappeared. But for the 3 1/2 years we have lived here in our apartment he has slept in his bed, gone to bed on time and slept through the night, no problems whatsoever up until May. I am not yet sure if he has had a very upsetting nightmare, or something has actually happened in there to scare the wits out of him and he refuses to confront this or have any self power over it himself to help himself conquer his problem, I realize his refusal to face down his fear is not helping and is only exaggerating the issue and he is refusing to listen to me about anything to do with it, he would rather sit there and allow it to be what it is, block it out, ignore it, and just not sleep in his bed at all, and I have to say this is frustrating for me both as a spiritual practitioner and as a parent. Anyone that may know of ways to help me out with this or can refer me to someone that has more experience with this I would gladly appreciate hearing about it, I am open to any and all suggestions that I haven't yet tried. Goodnight everyone and Bright Blessings!
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Friday 10-3,-2014
Hello to all my lovelies and I apologize fervently for the delay, due to no internet at home I have been seriously behind on everything and now I have way too much work to be catching up on. I just got service restored today so now I can get back everything that has been so sadly neglected! This Full Moon on October 8th, is in the sign of Aries and it is also a eclipse so any magic done during this time is going to get a fiery boost from the hotheaded warrior sign. Work that we do during and after this time may blast off towards the stratosphere of success, but also so might family matters that come to a head like a raging volcano. Eclipse energy affects and shapes the next 6 months of our lives so be careful about suddenly deciding to end a relationship, walking out of your job, moving out of your homes, or any rash and impulsive decisions , as the Aries sign is notorious for occasionally doing things in a reckless and fired up manner. However, occasionally these sudden impulse hothead decisions also have their upsides, we may finally get enough fire in our blood to do the right thing for ourselves to change and transform a situation in our lives that no longer is good for us. Some of us will get a fire lit under our arses and finally get those long over due projects done at home and at work and suddenly we might finally go for something or someone we have been wanting in our lives for a good while but have not had enough guts until now to go for it.
I intend to use the fire energy to get more writing in my books done, I might actually get them done if I put in enough time and effort. I need this exhausted slug mode to disappear so I have the will and energy to actually get this done I have seriously put it off too long! I will also be renewing my efforts to find a full time 40 hour a week job. I have not had a full time work schedule since October 13, 2013 and I'm getting a bit frustrated with going hand to mouth on itty bitty sales and the occasional commissions from my online work sites. Being self employed is not always what it's cracked up to be even if the pros outweigh the cons. I enjoy being self employed but on the other hand I wish somehow I could hit a jackpot with pay. I made a horrible mistake to my Amazon a-store, I was trying to edit a category page and I ended up deleting the entire contents of the page and now I have to go back and re-add every damn piece of it! But maybe this wasn't just my screw up, perhaps a sign I actually needed to fix it to start with? I normally don't make mistakes that bad. I am going to go for now my lovelies I have a ton of work to be doing and the full moon is coming so if I want to see something manifest I need to hop to it and get busy!! Bright Blessings to all!
I intend to use the fire energy to get more writing in my books done, I might actually get them done if I put in enough time and effort. I need this exhausted slug mode to disappear so I have the will and energy to actually get this done I have seriously put it off too long! I will also be renewing my efforts to find a full time 40 hour a week job. I have not had a full time work schedule since October 13, 2013 and I'm getting a bit frustrated with going hand to mouth on itty bitty sales and the occasional commissions from my online work sites. Being self employed is not always what it's cracked up to be even if the pros outweigh the cons. I enjoy being self employed but on the other hand I wish somehow I could hit a jackpot with pay. I made a horrible mistake to my Amazon a-store, I was trying to edit a category page and I ended up deleting the entire contents of the page and now I have to go back and re-add every damn piece of it! But maybe this wasn't just my screw up, perhaps a sign I actually needed to fix it to start with? I normally don't make mistakes that bad. I am going to go for now my lovelies I have a ton of work to be doing and the full moon is coming so if I want to see something manifest I need to hop to it and get busy!! Bright Blessings to all!
Thursday, September 18, 2014
9/18,/2014
So I'm going to share what happened to me for the Full Moon, I only got to see the moon rise and then I had to hurry up and get inside it came a big storm here and I got to collect about 2 gallons worth of super charged water, clean rain water collected during a Full Moon is really great for scrying, blessing, and cleansing. It was also blessed by the intuitive energy of the Pisces sign so I will probably be using it for a lot of divination work. I have it stored in a huge gallon pickle jar and some very clean wine bottles. I have not done any spells or ritual work since the Friday before the Full Moon, I have been concentrating on more domestic areas of my life.
I have been busy with slowly working on my books, housework, and doing my usual shopping and bill paying. A close friend has returned to my life and I am quite happy with that development. I was seriously thinking that things between us were not going to get better then God and Goddess decided to apparently intervene and change that suddenly. I have noticed the change in the weather, it is suddenly cooler now and I have the strongest urge to sleep more, I just feel really drowsy and sluggish and getting myself out of bed has become a herculean task, I spend literally half the day trying to stay awake long enough to get chores ,errands, and other things done because my brain is shouting at me to just go back to bed. I also find myself in the kitchen cooking stuff like the homemade chili I made today. Autumn brings about ideas of hearty, thick, homemade comfort food and the weird desire to find a blanket, my coffee, and pile up and hibernate. That is way out of sync with the workaholic get it done Capricorn nature!
I guess the next project at home is to dig out the cool weather gear. It dropped to 40 here last night, a 20 degree difference from last week. We here in Tennessee don't usually see that until October and everyone is talking about the Farmer's Almanac predicting a very cold winter. So I'm gonna be busy this weekend with grocery shopping, more errands, cleaning the house, and more writing. this is going to be a short post as there is not yet anything witchy to update. So for now Bright Blessings to All!
I have been busy with slowly working on my books, housework, and doing my usual shopping and bill paying. A close friend has returned to my life and I am quite happy with that development. I was seriously thinking that things between us were not going to get better then God and Goddess decided to apparently intervene and change that suddenly. I have noticed the change in the weather, it is suddenly cooler now and I have the strongest urge to sleep more, I just feel really drowsy and sluggish and getting myself out of bed has become a herculean task, I spend literally half the day trying to stay awake long enough to get chores ,errands, and other things done because my brain is shouting at me to just go back to bed. I also find myself in the kitchen cooking stuff like the homemade chili I made today. Autumn brings about ideas of hearty, thick, homemade comfort food and the weird desire to find a blanket, my coffee, and pile up and hibernate. That is way out of sync with the workaholic get it done Capricorn nature!
I guess the next project at home is to dig out the cool weather gear. It dropped to 40 here last night, a 20 degree difference from last week. We here in Tennessee don't usually see that until October and everyone is talking about the Farmer's Almanac predicting a very cold winter. So I'm gonna be busy this weekend with grocery shopping, more errands, cleaning the house, and more writing. this is going to be a short post as there is not yet anything witchy to update. So for now Bright Blessings to All!
Friday, September 5, 2014
September Full Moon.
The Full Moon is in Pisces this Monday on the 8th. Pisces is the sign of deep intuition, fantasies, daydreams, and dreams, so don't be surprised if you catch yourself off on cloud nine daydreaming or fantasizing, or just falling asleep out of nowhere and then waking up from having some deep and interesting dreams. This might make getting work done a bit challenging and distracting as some of us may feel hazy minded or in a fog of confused disorientation, some people don't take well to Pisces energy, emotions and feelings can be watery, such as having sudden crying fits and being more sensitive and touchy than usual. It is good for us that we stop to examine our mind's far out there musings and go with the flow emotionally and spiritually because it leads to inspiration and reflection. I already had one dream today and I have to say it was rather strange considering the situation and person I saw in it. I will definitely be paying attention to my dreams for the next few weeks as Full Moons affect the events in our lives in the two weeks after they occur. I feel that most of the work I will be doing this weekend is going to focus on psychic awareness and dreams and other Sensitive and Receptive themes.
I did my money spell tonight and I actually got to do it on the right day this time so hopefully that will get me some good results. I also charged up my charm bags and jars for love, money, and my psychic enhancement bag. It seems this was the Friday to do the important parts I needed to do for magical working. The love and money drawing charm bags got a extra boost this time because I took the time to take everything out of them, inspect it all for wear or damage, washed down the crystals to cleanse them of spiritual debris, and refreshed everything with new oils, powders and magnetic sand. This is recommended at least twice a month to replace old, worn, damaged and "dirty" stuff in your bags. Powders and oil lose scent and go stale so they have to be regularly replaced, crystals need periodic cleansing so they keep a charge and still work properly.
Today while I was at the local spiritual supply shop I found two obsidian polished stones that have see through inclusions in them. They reminded me of eyes for some reason and I thought that was interesting. One has a round transluscent spot in the enter of it that really does resemble a eye, and the other one had a brownish clear band running through it. If you hold them to the light just so you can pretty clearly see through both stones. Obsidian is sometimes used for divination to make mirrors and crystal balls from. I also got more incense, this time it was "Love Shack" and "Honey" and both smell fantastic, and I found a bag of loose leafed white sage for a dollar.
Speaking of the Pisces full Moon, I just so happen to have a bottle of Anna Riva's "Pisces" oil, which is meant for dreams and intuition according to the label description, so a few drops of that along with some Astral Travel, Dream, and my own personal blend went into the bag along with a fresh pinch of herbal powder and magnetic sand. I am inspired to create a Dream Jar, a spell jar for us that are Empaths, and Sensitive Receptive types. I think I will do that tomorrow and post about it. Also today at the pharmacy I found a fantastic blank sketch pad that is the perfect size to make spell papers out of. 70 pages of medium weight 6x9 nice paper for $2.89 is a steal as parchment paper can get expensive to keep stocked up on. The pad caught my eye and I just had to have it, so now when I am in need of decent spell paper I know where to go find it! I am going to disappear for awhile I have to get some sleep it is 2:30 am here. Bright Blessings to All and I shall return soon!
I did my money spell tonight and I actually got to do it on the right day this time so hopefully that will get me some good results. I also charged up my charm bags and jars for love, money, and my psychic enhancement bag. It seems this was the Friday to do the important parts I needed to do for magical working. The love and money drawing charm bags got a extra boost this time because I took the time to take everything out of them, inspect it all for wear or damage, washed down the crystals to cleanse them of spiritual debris, and refreshed everything with new oils, powders and magnetic sand. This is recommended at least twice a month to replace old, worn, damaged and "dirty" stuff in your bags. Powders and oil lose scent and go stale so they have to be regularly replaced, crystals need periodic cleansing so they keep a charge and still work properly.
Today while I was at the local spiritual supply shop I found two obsidian polished stones that have see through inclusions in them. They reminded me of eyes for some reason and I thought that was interesting. One has a round transluscent spot in the enter of it that really does resemble a eye, and the other one had a brownish clear band running through it. If you hold them to the light just so you can pretty clearly see through both stones. Obsidian is sometimes used for divination to make mirrors and crystal balls from. I also got more incense, this time it was "Love Shack" and "Honey" and both smell fantastic, and I found a bag of loose leafed white sage for a dollar.
Speaking of the Pisces full Moon, I just so happen to have a bottle of Anna Riva's "Pisces" oil, which is meant for dreams and intuition according to the label description, so a few drops of that along with some Astral Travel, Dream, and my own personal blend went into the bag along with a fresh pinch of herbal powder and magnetic sand. I am inspired to create a Dream Jar, a spell jar for us that are Empaths, and Sensitive Receptive types. I think I will do that tomorrow and post about it. Also today at the pharmacy I found a fantastic blank sketch pad that is the perfect size to make spell papers out of. 70 pages of medium weight 6x9 nice paper for $2.89 is a steal as parchment paper can get expensive to keep stocked up on. The pad caught my eye and I just had to have it, so now when I am in need of decent spell paper I know where to go find it! I am going to disappear for awhile I have to get some sleep it is 2:30 am here. Bright Blessings to All and I shall return soon!
Monday, August 25, 2014
Virgo New Moon
The new moon falls in the sign of Virgo today. This is a great time to start new projects and get work done that has been lagging behind as Virgo is not one for slacking and is the sign of perfectionism. As for me, I am hard at work catching up on writing, working on my online job sites, I am also revamping my Amazon store called Blackwolf's Pagan Emporium and re-adding newer products and organizing them better. Feel Free to take a look for now there are plenty of books and some Divination products to choose from for the time being until I add more stuff!
I have also been helping others with their online work on my All Solutions Network site of which I currently have 10 people to manage. Want to join and make some money with me? See here>>AllSolutionsNetwork. I have had 10 other things to do this week, paid bills, went shopping, inspectors came to my apartment for annual inspections, then I had to ready my daughter for the bittersweet trip back to Maine with her father. she lives with him 9 months a year, and my visitation time with her is brief and it felt like I only had here with me a couple weeks instead of 2 months. All too soon I am saying emotional goodbyes and going back to a quiet house and too much empty free time. Mrs. New Moon is gonna fix that for me, I have a lot of work to catch up on.
Now onto witchy topics.. I bought two bottles of sampler sized spiced Rum that was $,50 a bottle, and two cigars, for a Saint Holy Death spell I am going to work on. The owner at the package place has a crew working on the store and they are expanding it, so I didn't stay long to see what else they had I just grabbed something suitable and left. I do hope Her Holiness likes her gift as I didn't exactly have time to find a specific brand of alcohol or cigars. I already have everything else I need for offerings so I think I am all set. I need plain white paper for writing spells but that has to wait until next week when I get paid again. Tonight I am going to re anoint and powder all of my charm bags, jars and other in progress spells, I carried my road opener and protection bags with me today and all of my paths were clear, traffic wasn't a problem to navigate and I was not bothered while I was out running around. i am going to go for now, it's 7pm, and I have to set up for tonight, Bright Blessings to everyone!
I have also been helping others with their online work on my All Solutions Network site of which I currently have 10 people to manage. Want to join and make some money with me? See here>>AllSolutionsNetwork. I have had 10 other things to do this week, paid bills, went shopping, inspectors came to my apartment for annual inspections, then I had to ready my daughter for the bittersweet trip back to Maine with her father. she lives with him 9 months a year, and my visitation time with her is brief and it felt like I only had here with me a couple weeks instead of 2 months. All too soon I am saying emotional goodbyes and going back to a quiet house and too much empty free time. Mrs. New Moon is gonna fix that for me, I have a lot of work to catch up on.
Now onto witchy topics.. I bought two bottles of sampler sized spiced Rum that was $,50 a bottle, and two cigars, for a Saint Holy Death spell I am going to work on. The owner at the package place has a crew working on the store and they are expanding it, so I didn't stay long to see what else they had I just grabbed something suitable and left. I do hope Her Holiness likes her gift as I didn't exactly have time to find a specific brand of alcohol or cigars. I already have everything else I need for offerings so I think I am all set. I need plain white paper for writing spells but that has to wait until next week when I get paid again. Tonight I am going to re anoint and powder all of my charm bags, jars and other in progress spells, I carried my road opener and protection bags with me today and all of my paths were clear, traffic wasn't a problem to navigate and I was not bothered while I was out running around. i am going to go for now, it's 7pm, and I have to set up for tonight, Bright Blessings to everyone!
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Starting a Pagan Crafts Business
I have had this idea on my mind for a long time and I do not know where to begin. I have always wanted to own and operate my own Craft and Ritual supply shop or business featuring my own handmade and handcrafted oils, powders, spells, and supplies. I have spent 16 years learning my craft and how to create my own supplies, tools, and other necessities. and I feel I should make them available to the magical communities. Many of you have seen some of my personal spell work and recipes on here and these are hand made no artificial ingredients or synthetic anything unless specified. I realize starting a business like this takes a lot of money and effort but I am willing to put forward what I have and see what happens. I am going to start small and maybe list some things on Amazon and on Google and other social sites I am associated with to see what kind of response I get. I intend to make everything affordable and reasonably priced. How many times have I seen things listed for prices that are ridiculously expensive and sometimes these products are fake, synthetic, or cheaply made! If you are going to pay a price for something then it should be from a serious crafter and made with quality and attention to their work and I am one of few that really does put effort , time, and intention into my work and everything I do! I have done work for individual people in the past and someone mentioned to me I should make it a business or a profitable venture.
So let me give you all a rundown of everything I know how to create and do and see what ya'll think..suggestions and ideas for other things are most welcomed!!
1: Ritual Oils, made from pure 100% herbal and oil ingredients and the herbs, roots and other ingredients are left in the bottle. Individually made 1oz and 2oz bottles and generous portions so you have plenty to do awhile! Price $5.00 per bottle
2: Hand sewn and beaded or plain spell and mojo bags, made with cotton fabric, occasionally hand dyed, and leather cording, all colors, sizes tiny to large. Individual beading of runes, names, or wording or designs upon specified request Small is $1.50 medium and larger sizes are $3.00 for plain and unadorned. Beaded and designed bags are all $5.00 each.
3: Herbal supplies, incenses, powders and coarse mixtures, from my own personal recipes. Many types of Love, Money, Luck Banishment, Reversal, Protection, even the dark sides of magic. Again, made in large sized individual batches intended for a good while of use! I have had many compliments on these about how great they smell and the generous sized portions. $5.00 per individual batch made.
4: Personally and ritually crafted spell jars and bags for nearly every purpose and need, love, money, psychic, banishment, protection, reversal, even darker themed magic. All work is done during the specific moon times and during specific days or observances of specific Gods,Goddess, and deities, of your choice. These are made with specific ritual herbal and powder ingredients, oils, stones, charms, and a personally written spell paper for the customer in Theban script, Either the jar is sealed with a ritual candle or the bag is charged in a candle ritual dedicated to charging the bag. you will not see anything fake or unnatural in these! personal instructions on care and use are also included. Mojo bags will be $10.00 each and jars will be $13.00 each.
5: Hand poured and ritually charged candles, these are usually medium to large candles, made with woven cotton linen wicks and strongly colored wax, they are easier to pour and inscribe with spells, and come in all colors and are either plain or inscribed with your requested intention and your personal information upon request. I can add infusions of oil and herbs to the candles upon request. All candles are $5.00 each.
6: I am undecided yet on spell kits, these require a lot of ingredients and supplies and are occasionally expensive to make and ship out, I may offer these at a later time if potential customers display a interest or if someone requests one. we are talking up to $30.00 worth of supplies and materials and then there is the cost of shipping. if anyone would like to have one made we can discuss the price and etc privately.
7: Fabric dolls and poppets made for specific spell work. Money, Love, Reversal, Banishment, Protection, any need and usage requested, all colors, and male or female or plain. Including personal spell cast on them, they are stuffed with ritual ingredients and materials, and provided with a bottle of ritual oil or powder and written instructions for further use. Spells and rituals for these are done per customer specification as these require a bit of personal information in order to be done properly. Dolls will be $10.00 each.
8: More products and services will be added depending on customer desires and requests!!
Now as of yet this is a dream and idea of mine..I am looking into options of how to set this up and get it running (amazon vendor site?) and most likely I will be running this business from my home and through my email and doing personal phone, email, and priority service mail orders and shipping the orders from my home address until I can afford a shop space and etc. I also need a bit of funding to get this off the ground as some of these supplies for the handmade products and materials gets a bit pricey. occasionally I will have to order ingredients and supplies from other vendors and suppliers and sometimes this can get a bit steep financially. I only know of a few personal favorite places of mine that let me have my wares for a decent price!
I have a lot of pictures of the work I have done located here on my other google site page.. Some of the work I have done. this is a old page and I am currently working on improving it but the pictures are from several of the things I have worked on in the past and continue to work on now.
So let me give you all a rundown of everything I know how to create and do and see what ya'll think..suggestions and ideas for other things are most welcomed!!
1: Ritual Oils, made from pure 100% herbal and oil ingredients and the herbs, roots and other ingredients are left in the bottle. Individually made 1oz and 2oz bottles and generous portions so you have plenty to do awhile! Price $5.00 per bottle
2: Hand sewn and beaded or plain spell and mojo bags, made with cotton fabric, occasionally hand dyed, and leather cording, all colors, sizes tiny to large. Individual beading of runes, names, or wording or designs upon specified request Small is $1.50 medium and larger sizes are $3.00 for plain and unadorned. Beaded and designed bags are all $5.00 each.
3: Herbal supplies, incenses, powders and coarse mixtures, from my own personal recipes. Many types of Love, Money, Luck Banishment, Reversal, Protection, even the dark sides of magic. Again, made in large sized individual batches intended for a good while of use! I have had many compliments on these about how great they smell and the generous sized portions. $5.00 per individual batch made.
4: Personally and ritually crafted spell jars and bags for nearly every purpose and need, love, money, psychic, banishment, protection, reversal, even darker themed magic. All work is done during the specific moon times and during specific days or observances of specific Gods,Goddess, and deities, of your choice. These are made with specific ritual herbal and powder ingredients, oils, stones, charms, and a personally written spell paper for the customer in Theban script, Either the jar is sealed with a ritual candle or the bag is charged in a candle ritual dedicated to charging the bag. you will not see anything fake or unnatural in these! personal instructions on care and use are also included. Mojo bags will be $10.00 each and jars will be $13.00 each.
5: Hand poured and ritually charged candles, these are usually medium to large candles, made with woven cotton linen wicks and strongly colored wax, they are easier to pour and inscribe with spells, and come in all colors and are either plain or inscribed with your requested intention and your personal information upon request. I can add infusions of oil and herbs to the candles upon request. All candles are $5.00 each.
6: I am undecided yet on spell kits, these require a lot of ingredients and supplies and are occasionally expensive to make and ship out, I may offer these at a later time if potential customers display a interest or if someone requests one. we are talking up to $30.00 worth of supplies and materials and then there is the cost of shipping. if anyone would like to have one made we can discuss the price and etc privately.
7: Fabric dolls and poppets made for specific spell work. Money, Love, Reversal, Banishment, Protection, any need and usage requested, all colors, and male or female or plain. Including personal spell cast on them, they are stuffed with ritual ingredients and materials, and provided with a bottle of ritual oil or powder and written instructions for further use. Spells and rituals for these are done per customer specification as these require a bit of personal information in order to be done properly. Dolls will be $10.00 each.
8: More products and services will be added depending on customer desires and requests!!
Now as of yet this is a dream and idea of mine..I am looking into options of how to set this up and get it running (amazon vendor site?) and most likely I will be running this business from my home and through my email and doing personal phone, email, and priority service mail orders and shipping the orders from my home address until I can afford a shop space and etc. I also need a bit of funding to get this off the ground as some of these supplies for the handmade products and materials gets a bit pricey. occasionally I will have to order ingredients and supplies from other vendors and suppliers and sometimes this can get a bit steep financially. I only know of a few personal favorite places of mine that let me have my wares for a decent price!
I have a lot of pictures of the work I have done located here on my other google site page.. Some of the work I have done. this is a old page and I am currently working on improving it but the pictures are from several of the things I have worked on in the past and continue to work on now.
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