New Moon tonight.

Tonight is a new moon in the sign of Cancer. A emotional and somewhat sensitive time as emotions, thoughts, and inner selves are moody, restless, and running high from extremes of anger and peace, to love and hate, and anything in between. I can personally attest to this as I have been going through a really hard time in my mind and heart about a situation with someone that seems to have no resolution aside from them just wanting to call it all quits and throw up their hands and leave and walk out of what should be a fantastic friendship. And when I try to get to the root cause of the real problem, that which I know is not just about me or even anything to do with me exactly, I am accused of things I have not done and acting in ways that I am not. sure its a smart idea to blame me and make me look like the problem to justify yourself ?


It hurts me deeply that I know what I was doing was right and I never actually done anything to hurt anyone but I am getting the shit anyway. It hurts me I have to let someone go that means very much to me because nothing seems to go right and every time we try to be friends or really have anything meaningful there is always a drama, problem, a longwinded explanation about who, what, when, and why,,or some run along story, or even a outright lie to excuse their behavior, actions, and lack of, or it's about how someone else might feel or think or do,or it's use someone else for a excuse and go to them to save their ass, because they cant bother with really being dead honest and come out with the actual truth. If you don't want to see me, talk to me, or have me around you can just tell me and get it over with. And the whole "I'm not getting what I want and need in my life so no one else is getting anything from me either" childish crap which serves no purpose but to make everyone and themselves miserable.


It seems no one is really considering how I might think or feel, or what I may have wanted or needed its just about what they want and what's good for them and how they want things to go. Maybe yes they do want to be their own person and go on with just their life and be themselves without attachments or commitments but please do not hurt others or drag others into your black hole of a life and cause them pain and misery and heartache either! I'm not a child you can tell me how to do things, how I have to act or behave, or how I need to be as a person or else I don't get anything from someone, I am not a dog that you can tell to mind and I am going to obey and bow down and play submissive just because someone seems to think they can get by with treating me like that. This selfish, self centered, controlling, dominating, ridiculously childish power trip they are on is not going to work with me and I am fed up and done! If friends, family, and others are walking out on them and refusing to have anything to do with them I am not surprised and am beginning to understand why.


Nevermind how much time, effort, emotions and selflessness I gave in trying to be the best friend I knew to be and how much I cared and wanted to care. Never mind how I treated them extremely well and tried to be the person they actually deserved to have. If I give something I would appreciate something in return but I basically got nothing out of it so I feel used and cheated and pissed on. It's better to hurt someone else so long as it means they don't have to be hurt? It's fine they treat you like others have treated them because it makes them feel better inside about themselves and how they get treated?  It's ok they keep going back to the same people that treated them like shit in the past and expect something to change, hoping if they do something right this time maybe it will be different, only to be hurt and let down because nothing changed and they end up getting hurt again, so they go straight back to the family and best friend and treat them like shit and shut themselves off from everyone and refuse to see or talk to anyone for weeks and ignore everyone and hide in their room and act like a moody teenager that isn't getting their way. And when you try to even talk to them to find out if they are ok or they need anything or what the problem is it gets you blown up at like its all to do with you and everything wrong in their life is somehow your fault or something you done. And they get mad at themselves and feel like shit and guilty and whatever else, because they know they have acted like a royal ass, but still accuse you of pushing things and trying to force yourself into their life, when you really haven't done that,it's them that hasn't bothered to call or have anything to do with you for weeks, and they call you names and accuse you of being someone you aren't are not and try to make you appear to be something and someone you know you aren't so they can justify themselves about what they haven't done and how they are not acting or being for themselves and you.  


What hurts me the most is I gave a hell of a lot for someone and something I originally believed was really going to be worth my time and effort and what I was willing to be and give. And every time I thought they were going forward they want to step back and shy away and refuse to move like a stubborn, balking mule's ass that is stuck in a mud hole and you have to all but stick a cattle prod to their ass and either hurt their feelings or piss them off or arouse some kind of strong emotion to get them to do anything or even to take a step forward in a better direction and even if they know you are right and what you're doing is right they still wont allow you to help or care for them.  Its always about what someone else is possibly going to say or what they might do or what they might think, they are always allowing others to somehow influence or have control over what they can do or who they can see or have anything to do with, and how they can or cant go on with their lives.


Maybe I really do see that deep down, this person is worth what I can give them and they really can be a better person and be a good person for themselves and maybe me too, but it is just not going to happen right now and the way it's going right now it may not ever, and I feel very let down and disappointed. I'm trying to not be depressed and feel ashamed of myself  because I really don't have a reason to be feeling that way. I know I did and said the right things and I tried  everything I know to be the right kind of person. but I cant help feeling like somehow I have lost something important and meaningful to me and there is no real way I can fix it and I hate feeling helpless and lost like that. Maybe before long I will see a sign of something good and things will look up for the better for at least one of us, if I have to go on with my life and forget everything I had with this friend then I guess that's what is going to be.  anyone reading this I'd appreciate some guidance or words of inspiration ..I feel so low inside myself right now and I'm struggling inside with what to do or how to feel..     

June, 8, 2013

I have been sitting here contemplating heavily on some of the spellwork I have done. One in particular seems to be still strongly exerting it's influence, that would be the Seal Up Your Problems jar spell I done several months ago the date says October 2013. I have seen particular inscriptions manifest slowly but surely from that last one, some in ways I specifically asked for, and some that are more subtle and harder to spot until I sit and think about it or I somehow get a sign or see and hear something that brings certain passages I wrote to mind. Most of everything I have asked for has happened and is still unfolding in the ways I have asked and situations happening further to ensure it will continue to unfold until it is all completed and the previous manifestations that have already happened will stay that way. Some things I didn't ask for have happened that seem to co-relate to the way the spell is working in what looks to be a protective and preventative nature. In essence, it has now created a protective aura on its own volition that is meant to accentuate and compliment my requests so that things can continue to happen accordingly, it is like watching a rose bud out and flower and surround itself with a massive wall of thorns, and each thorn that grows its meant to protect and preserve the beautiful flower that will eventually blossom.


 Although I am kind of quirking a brow at the way some of it has happened even if I understand the why of it. I seriously think I created one very powerful and long lasting impact and it was my own original creation of which I can say I am proud of. It takes true skill to create something that strong and resonating and it be one of your own making from scratch and a flash of a idea.


However.. I am seeing a bits and pieces that I did not anticipate or plan on, that too seems to have its own reasons for happening. One effect has sprang up that I didn't expect which is probably a inevitable consequence to it all, and maybe it I still better for it to be that way for the time being even if I'm not too enthused about it. Sometimes you get what you ask to see done knowing for a fact it is ultimately best for all involved, only to have a slightly undesirable outcome develop on the side that does not go as anticipated or planned. Maybe that was meant to happen too, it is part of the full entire manifestation of what I asked for to begin with and the direction it is all taking is in fact exactly what is needed even if I am not entirely enthused or happy about some of the results. As with all good things done for the sake of all involved and situations surrounding them, there is always at least one not so good thing will happen, as even the most perceivably perfect of roses have a spot or blemish somewhere, that is the law of everything in this world.






So even perceivably negative outcomes are still positive in their own way even if you don't see or understand it at the time. Nothing is absolutely divinely perfect down to the finest detail and I am trying to understand how it is that some of the undesirable effects  will be part of something good even if I am not seeing it clearly, perhaps it is also a protective measure meant for me, in that I need to retreat to a safer distance out of the way and be cut off from the details and action a bit in order for other things to manifest accordingly. Some other things have happened that appear to be a preventative measure in order to keep it all in check and under control. I created something, therefore I have to stand back and watch it germinate, grow into what it is meant to become and eventually come to the ends it is meant to. 






I have contemplated undoing the last jar spell and breaking the seal and destroying it and the contents, wondering if I may have went a bit too far with attempting to fix what was a massive and ongoing problem, my intentions were honorable and justifiable and more for others' good than my own. However the possible resulting actions and consequences of me undoing all of that work might be much worse off and cause every good thing that has come of it to come crashing down in a massive defeat and everything will literally go to hell in a hand basket, so I believe it is safer by just leaving it alone and allowing it to do its work. I do not want to  screw up and undo all the good things that have happened thus far on a niggling doubt that I maybe overstepped myself in some way. I think if that were the case then none of my requests would have ever happened as they have already. If it's not broken then don't try to fix it and if its still working then leave it alone!





Considering how well it is still working, I suppose I have to take everything I am seeing with a heaping spoon of salt and accept that just maybe that is in fact what should be happening if that is what is needed to achieve the original goal. Who am I exactly to question or frown upon the Goddess and God's final decisions? I only asked for the outcome, how it happens to present itself and in what ways is entirely up to them to do as they see fit. Whether or not I agree or approve with the exact way it is carried out isn't really relevant so long as the original purpose and goal is achieved and completed. What I have to deal with as a result whether good, bad or something in between is also not just up to me and most likely also for my higher good even if I don't like some of it.  I will update on this situation again soon when I see anything else is happening. For now, Blessed Be to All!

Friday May 6, 2014 Money Spell Night

Tonight is money spell night for me, I always try to do drawing spell work on the Friday before the Full moon. As to a update on the Money Spell I ordered some time ago I have to say it has worked much better than I expected. To find this money spell go to whitemagicalchemy.com. The spell is labeled "Immediate Money Drawing Spell Kit" under the section titled "Spells and Spell Kits". That is where I bought the spell from. It is better for me to give the information to where it is found rather than possibly infringe on anyone's rights to their own work. I apologize again for never writing sooner..due to some financial setbacks I was forced to cancel my internet at home and writing a blog post on a tiny phone screen is about impossible! This new money spell is going to be strengthened and we shall hopefully see positive results in a week's time.


The Full moon falls on a Friday the 13th this month. The number 13 is associated with change and transformation, according to the Tarot, 13 is the Death card, signifying change, radical transformations, breakage of old lifestyles and life patterns, and sometimes even actual death , in order to make way for new beginnings that need to take place so we can become something more, or that something that needs to end,will do so, in order to bring about new life. so perhaps I will finally see some things I have been desperately been hoping for , to transform into reality instead of a wistful fancy. Or it could very well be that a lot of things will end for me, in painful ways that I require to grow and become something and someone more to myself and those around me. And just maybe, if Gods and Goddesses favor my requests, I will see a very good change in financial status.   




I have also been somewhat depressed over a friendship that is seemingly trying to end on the other person's side. It seems no matter what I do or say or want and need..it seems that it is possibly going to happen anyway and they have walked away and given up? It makes me very depressed and disheartened because this person means very much to me in a lot of ways. But I guess but even the best kinds of love amongst friends sometimes doesn't last and doesn't become forever and a day. It is perhaps my doing in some ways..I tend to push and prod things when I feel a fire needs lit under it and action needs to be taken and occasionally I am guilty of shoving it when a gentle tap was all was needed. When I know I am right about something or someone and I see something that I know is there, very little can dissuade me from what and whom that I feel should be in my life or I should have, and the reasons given as to why not isn't something I want to see and hear especially when I know its just a load of crap and it never should be there to begin with.   




Occasionally my brand of love, care and support,, given in any context, is a bit much for the other person to cope with or deal with and I find myself abandoned and left behind and purposely forgotten and they move onto others that are less intense in personality and action. I am guilty of being just too much of a lot of good things and I give it selflessly without regret or remorse with all I've got, and when I am not receiving back what I'm giving, I feel very frustrated, fed up, and downcast and I make no bones about expressing it verbally and otherwise.


 Why sometimes The Gods and Goddesses puts someone in your life for a lengthy amount of time, and causes you to love and care for them and be all that they need you to be, and then take them away and leaves a big blank space in your life where they used to be,and it leaves you clueless and scrambling for answers as to exactly why and how it is going to be this way, is beyond my comprehension at times. I suppose I will see the answers to it all in due time. Right now I have to say my heart and spirit is very heavy and sorrowful. I guess what will be , will be, and I am just a mere mortal whose life Fate likes to play games with to see what kind of person I'm really made of.




well I shall return later and actually update like I say I will, I have to go now and prepare my space for tonight. Blessed Be To All!

New Money Spell bieng Done Tonight. First Full Moon Eclipse Coming Soon!

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! I hope everyone is doing well. Tonight I am going to be doing a new money spell from a spell kit I purchased in the mail. Normally I would never spend that much money on a spell kit of any kind, but every time I looked through this one site I found that this one spell kit drew my eyes and attention so I finally gave in and ordered it. Due to the fact that the spell itself belongs to someone else I cannot share the exact details without first asking their permission, but I will tell you all if it works or not later and direct you all to where it can be found so you can buy your own kit for yourselves! It comes with its own personal oils and resins and instructions, of which I am not exactly allowed to copy else I may be in trouble for copyright infringement and I do not need that!

Interestingly enough, I have not actually done the spell yet, but ever since I got the kit I have seen financial issues do very well, little things such as I got assistance to pay a bill, I got approved again for some personal assistance from a agency, I made a new customer on my kitsylane store just today, and tomorrow I am making some money from doing a family favor. So let us see what happens after tonight when I actually perform the spell and do as directions imply!


A astronomical event I want to alert everyone to, the first Full Moon Eclipse is coming on April 14-15,2014. This is going to be a special one as the color of the moon will become a orange-red shade and this is known as a "Blood Moon" The USA will see the partial phase about 1:58am and total eclipse will happen around 3am or later depending on your time zone , this one will be seen across the entire USA and Canada, we just might finally get to see one here, as where I live I have not gotten to see one in a long time. So between midnight and 6 am, on the night of the 14th-15th, be watching the skies for a beautiful, if ominous looking, sign of the times to change!  This is going to be a harsh event astronomically speaking, The four Cardinal Planets are going to be facing off in a Cardinal Grand Cross in the week coming after this eclipse and all of us within the Four Cardinal Signs of the zodiac will be affected by massive career and relationship upheaval and changes. The eclipse in itself will be the tip off to all this change so be prepared for anything from massive blowouts between loved ones, relationship failures,losing your jobs, problems within the home and property, and any other type of sudden and catastrophic changes that will alter your life in a radical way. But remember..change is a good thing down the road and even if at the time it may be harsh and disturbing, you will benefit somehow in time! Me being a Capricorn, I expect to see something shift in a way I do not want to see but I have to embrace and roll with the tides and remind myself that whatever comes is what was meant to happen to begin with.


  At the end of this month, on April 28-29th, we will see a New Moon Solar Eclipse, which will be much gentler on the raw and turbulent changes we just went through during the full Moon. This eclipse will bring a much needed balm to our wounds and smooth out the path for new changes to come that will be of good for all of us. I personally have to go and renew the lease to my apartment on the 28th so I am hoping that my housing manager is in a good mood! We may see another love interest pop up out of nowhere, get hired for another job, patch up problems with loved ones and see other issues resolve themselves in a way that made the sudden changes from the Full Moon Eclipse seem like a divine comedy taking place. We may find ourselves laughing at the absurdity of everything and thinking to ourselves what was I so distressed about when look at the great thing that just came of it all??!!   


I will post again soon, hopefully it wont be a month from now, with details as to what happened as a result of my new spell working and what occurred during the Eclipse time. Until then..Bright Blessings to all!!    

March 13,2014

I am very guilty of not writing in awhile, I have had some personal issues going on and I am having a hard time dealing with it, however things seem to be looking a bit better for the moment. To fill you all in, I recently received my taxes back and it was a much needed financial boost. I have not done any spellwork or magical anything for at least two months because I simply have not had the ambition or drive to even touch it. You can't work any magical anything properly if your mindset and emotional state is not in focus and you have 50 things going on that may negatively influence it in a way that will affect the outcome and results. If you are angry, depressed, not sleeping, etc..its best to wait until you feel better to do anything.


It seems I am going to have to redo the Seal Up Your Problems Jar Spell yet again. A particular issue keeps popping back into my life and this time it has to go and stay gone! When a situation or someone just keeps causing you and others issues and problems endlessly no matter how hard you try to get it/them to leave then its time to pull out the bag of tricks and pick a big one.


Today I went on a limb and ordered a handmade Prosperity and Abundance spell kit from a online alchemist's shop I have browsed through several times. That one spell kit keeps catching my attention and I felt compelled to finally purchase it. All materials that come in it are handmade the day it is ordered and etc..so let us see what happens after I receive it and follow the instructions. The spell scroll included in it is reportedly from a Native American Shaman, and I am intensely curious as to what it's about and what happens when you use the incantation written on the scroll. I have Native roots, from my mother's side, 5 generations back so their path of magical and spiritual practices appeals to me in certain ways. Normally I make and create my own spells and supplies but I am very curious as to why I kept being drawn to the shop page and that one particular kit. It may very well be that it will become money well spent. I wont get it for at least a couple weeks, maybe in time for the New Moon which is idealistically the right time to begin new spells.
   
I have not decided whether or not I want to do anything witchy for this Full Moon on Sunday the 16th, I have not felt well or in the groove of things for awhile so thus my energy and drive is not up to snuff to be working on anything huge or important. I may just set out all my crystal tools and divination supplies, my stationary spells, and powder and anoint my baggies and let them all get a charge. For now my readers, It is time for bed..it's  12:45am in Tennessee. I bid you all Blessed Be and I will return shortly!

Astral Travel and Divination Enhancement

Today's post will center on helping oneself achieve better Astral Travel and Divinatory experiences. Some of us are born naturally inclined and gifted with a high degree of clairvoyant and medium receptiveness, while some of us need a bit of fine tuning and training. It is believed by many that every human on this planet has untapped potential to harness and use the power to divine the secrets of the unknown in both past and future tense, as well as present moments in time, and to travel beyond one's physical body into realms that only Spirit can go. Astral travel is the ability to leave one's physical body via soul separation and go to places, people, and other spiritual realms that our physical body cannot achieve, to learn about our past, present and future selves and the scenarios which will or have already played out in our physical world. This is often accomplished while asleep, or during deep meditation, it is often called a OBE , or a out of body experience. People have died physically and reported seeing themselves floating above or standing beside their "dead" body , watching the scenery, and then they are jolted back in to their bodies. We have all had the "falling" sensation upon waking up from a heavy sleep and finding we feel like we have ran a marathon or been dropped from a great height, this is your soul bouncing back into your body after it has been out wandering. Some of us have had very vivid dreams where we were somewhere with someone or there was vivid scenery that looks and feel as if you are wide awake and actually experiencing it as like you are in a movie, or watching it from the sidelines, or you are taking part in the actions and watching yourself perform actions and going through events..in a way you are, or you might possibly be finding yourself in the situation at a later time and date in the "real" world that you already live in.  Most of us will not remember very well what we were doing or where we were before we wake up, this is the hard part of Astral Projecting and Dream work. Teaching oneself to have clairvoyant visions and experiences can be done while either awake or asleep, and is a different process. Empaths have the ability to see and feel and experience others emotions and personal vibes, and also energy and vibrations in the atmosphere and in the people and places around them, spiritual mediums have the gift to see, feel, or experience some type of contact with spirits of the deceased and spiritual energies meant to guide them towards a conclusion to a question or situation that needs clearer answers, either about themselves or a person or situation for whom they are asking to be guided towards revealing answers. I created a special oil, made from a partial 300 year old Gypsy recipe, and tweaked it a bit to add in my own ingredients, to aide myself in my own ventures, and I want to share it with you all, This oil is to be kept in a dark bottle, placed into  dark cupboard or drawer or something where it is sealed away from sunlight, sunlight reputedly ruins the oil and its properties, so best to keep it in a dark space. It's purpose is for delving into the dark mysteries of the Veil, and most divination practices are best done at the new Moon and the few days before and after the New Moon. This is a potent oil, I have personally had physical sensations while making the oil itself, and after the oil was steeped properly. It causes the eyes to dilate if applied to the Third Eye area, you may feel light headed or drowsy, and while you are sleeping it creates very strong and vivid dreams, it literally physically and spiritually opens you up to receive clairvoyant and psychic reception.  I strongly advise to not drive or operate heavy machinery or do anything else that requires a focused conscious while working with this oil. If adverse effects such as a rash or swelling or anything remotely allergic occurs while using it on your skin, stick with using it in other external ways. I understand everyone is different and some may or may not have a unwanted reaction to some of the strong herbs used in this recipe.




Solitary Shadow's Divination / Astral Travel Oil.
1 Tps of Dittanny of Crete
1 Tps of Mugwort
1 Tps White Sage
1 Tps of Damaina
1 Tps Wild Lettuce Leaf
1 Tps  each of Lavender, and Jasmine Flower
1 very small High John Root, crushed
1/4 tps each of  White Copal, Dragon's Blood, Frankincense and Myrrh Resins ground fine.


This herbal mixture is to be placed inside a cup and to it will be added 4 oz each of 100% pure olive or almond oils, and this will be gently heated in a  pot of gently boiling water, or in a double boiler for exactly 9 minutes, it must be gently steaming , and all herbs, roots, and resins stirred briskly to ensure it all mixes properly, but do not allow the oil to boil. Set it aside to cool and bottle everything roots, herbs, and all, and allow it to sit for at least 30 days. This is to be made on a New Moon and usage can begin on the next New Moon. If you want to use just the powdered herbs as a incense or addition to charm bags, sleep aide satchets, and spells, it can be used immediately. Makes about 4 tablespoons of powder.   


It will have a strong floral and greenery type scent that lingers for a good while. I left my herbs and resins inside my oil bottle and it will turn a dark brow/green shade over time, this does not affect the use of the oil, however if you want to strain yours that is fine. The oil can be used on your body, on spell papers and candles, inside prepared charm bags, and a drop or two used onto your divination tools. In my experiences, the scent and properties of the oil both opens me up to receive clairvoyant and empathetic messages, whether asleep or awake, as well as attracting spiritual contacts as spiritual entities seem to like both the scent of the oil and herbal preparation. I hope everyone finds this to be a useful and stimulating recipe and I hope everyone that uses it has great experiences like I have. I have to go for now I have tons to do.. **Blessed Be To All** 

Great Developments Are Taking Place!

I am excited and have been in a great mood all week! The Gods and Goddesses and all Higher Powers are surely smiling down on me lately!  I have been busy social media hopping to publishers and advertisers to add my book "The Darkened Path Book 1: The Burden" to their lists,  I have seen wonderfully positive developments for my friend and I am so relieved and happy for him, that is a huge weight off my mind and for his too! Things in my life lately seem to be falling slowly into place on a lot of levels and I am very happy with that. I have made new friends across the world and suddenly have a lot of social support and that makes me feel great inside! So busy I have been , that I have not managed to complete the Better Business spell I posted about over New Years holiday. With all this excitement and buzz floating around me I may not actually need it but I am going to finish it this weekend. Why not add extra rocket fuel? It just might get me boosted to the stratosphere! I am about to publish a new website from webs.com and I will have that done by the weekend and when I get it finished I will post the link for that too!  Inside it will be a showcase of my book, a  small web store for some of my Pagan products I make here in my home, links to my blogs I have here on Google, and snippets of other things. This is going to be a short post, I have tons of other things to do this weekend, so to all my readers, Bright Blessings!

First Spell of The NewYear.

Hello Everyone and Blessed Be! I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year Holiday? Mine was very exciting and eventful.  I won $20.00 on  a one dollar scratch ticket. Things have moved forward by a giant leap in my personal life as well. I fervently hope things continue to progress in that positive direction on both accounts. I did not get to perform or practice any magical anything on the actual New Moon as I was not at home. So now the New Moon is steadily progressing into the first quarter, and my intention is to do some financial assistance work, I need another full time job really soon, and I am going to file taxes the minute my W-2 arrives. I also need some of these little side jobs of mine to pick up some business and customers. there is another New Moon on January 30th, so we are all going to be blessed with a double time to begin new ventures for this year and make it count! my first spell for this year will be a Better Business Spell. This will be a spell you can place in a red or green charm bag and carry with you, or place it inside a jar and keep it in a stationary position.

Stones you will need:1 each of Citrine, Red Carnelian, Gold Tiger Eye, Malachite, 2 green or gold Lodestones. You may also use many other, green, yellow, brown or red stones that symbolize money growth and prosperity. Clear or yellow Quartz may be substituted as can Jade, green or red  Adventurine, Fools Gold, Cryophase Agate, Red Tiger Eye, Copper pieces, flecks or real gold or silver, or nuggets, Ruby, is a very prized wealth and success drawing stone. Yellow Diamonds can also be used if one can find or has them. Be sure to study the properties of your chosen stones first to ensure they are the right fit for your spell.   

Miscellaneous Items : 1 written spell paper with your name, birthday address and other identifying  information and the name and address of your business. If there are more than one business or work that you do, add every name and address even if you are self employed. This works for emails of business, links and online forms of your business , anything that constitutes a place of business.  1 medium to large red or green drawstring bag, you can sew your own or buy one.  For the stationary spell you can use 1 mason jelly jar or larger pint size. 1 small key charm or a skeleton key. 5-7 Cowrie Shells, $5-7 Dollar Bills, or same amount of other currency, 5-7 real silver or copper coins pennies made before 1983 are pure copper, 2 green 6" candles, or one 7 day green jar candle, sometimes you can find "Better Business" fixed specialty candles those are great too.

Herbal and Root ingredients: 1 tps allspice powder or 5-7 whole berries, 5 bay leaves, 1 tps basil, 1 tps bergamot, 1 tps calendula petals, 1 tps calamus root, 1 string of devil's shoestring, 1tps of five finger grass, 1 tps queen of the meadow root, 1 small high john root,1 whole Lucky Hand Root,  1 small piece of jezebel root, 1 tps of powdered sugar, 1 whole nutmeg or 1 tps powder, 1 tps pure vanilla extract or 1 vanilla bean pod, 1 tps rosemary, a twig sized piece of rose of Jericho flower, 1 tps vertiver root and 1 tps of wintergreen. 1 small clump of Spanish moss.

We will start this spell by placing our two candles side by side of a small dish, or place the 7 day candle behind the dish , onto the dish will go your charm bag or jar.  Inside the bag or jar we will wrap the spell paper with the Spanish Moss and place the clump of Spanish Moss inside the bag, followed in layers by the Stones and Miscellaneous Items, and then covering those items with the Herbal and Root ingredients. For the bag you may place the loose herbs and powders and roots in a organza pouch so they do not spill and leave the Miscellaneous items in the bottom of the bag. For the jar we will layer the items one by one together starting with the spell paper that has been wrapped in the Spanish moss and adding in the Stones and Miscellaneous items and layer the Herbal and Root ingredients on top. Both the jar and bag may now be sprinkled sparingly with your choice of 7 drops of money drawing oils and a fine dusting of powders and magnetic sand for the lodestones and 7 drops of 100 proof grain alcohol.  The magnetic sand feeds the lodestones an the alcohol is meant for spirit libation. Your jar or bag is now ready to be charged and you will anoint your candles with oils and dust them with money drawing powders and then light your candles on either side of your jar and invoke your chosen God, Goddess, or Spirit to bless and favor your endeavor. While your candles are burning they are charging up the bag or jar and the charge is complete when the candles go out. The 6" candles are made for a quick charge and this works fine if you need it in a hurry. If you are using the 7 day candle this will be when the 7th day is done and the candle is burned completely down. 

Place your jar in a safe place in your business where its power and influence can be seen and noticed by you, and your potential customers such as on your desk or near your work stations. Your bag can be tucked in your pockets or carried in your purse or bag while you are out  doing business with clients. Alternately you can set up your jar as a focal point in a altar setting and burn one small candle once a week or keep a 7 day candle burning near it while you are working. The jar and bag are to be opened up  once a week and sprinkled sparingly with more powders, magnetic sand, and the 7 drops of alcohol to feed and give it offerings so that it will continue to work like you need it too. The alcohol also prevents spoilage or molding of the herbal and root ingredients and acts as a preservative.  If by some chance the herbal and root ingredients are found to be growing mold, rot, or spoiling, you have to toss out everything, take your Stones and Miscellaneous items and cleanse them appropriately,  and wait until the next New Moon and start the process again. This is a sign that something is working against your business success and you need to find out what the problem may be. Before attempting to recreate the jar and spell bag again, a cleansing of the business space and yourself to remove negative intentions and vibrations brought on by others and by potential spiritual attacks against you and your success is recommended. If the jar breaks, cracks, shatters or is damaged in some way that no one physically caused this is also a bad sign and needs to be remedied ASAP.  Happy Lucky Business and Blessed Be!!

My New Year's Resolution Goal.

 This post is going to be a bit depressing and maybe a bit too black and white, but right now that is how things are for me at the current moment and I am not in a position to be too dreamy or unrealistic and look at things with a rose tinted viewpoint. My New Year's resolutions are to finally have a true life partner, and to finally be financially secure and debt free by end of 2014. What do I want and need from this life partner? Someone who can be beside me through everything and help me lead a mature, responsible, stable home and family life and have real love in his heart and soul for us, and whatever else we might share, and not back out or turn away. Someone who can stand behind me and support me emotionally and psychologically in my goals and decisions no matter if he disagrees or agrees. Someone who can stand and fight for and defend what we have and share, and be strong and resilient when the days come that I have taken on more than I should and I just cant do things on my own. Someone I can really truly bond with on all those important levels that can really understand and knows the real me inside and out, that can feel what I feel and see what I see and know who I am and who I am not, and not try to make me into something or someone I am not because that is what he wants of me. I have never truly had this one thing happen for me and All Higher Powers know that this is what I wish for most. I think I may already have this type of person in my life but I have not exactly been told or shown a rock solid clarified "yes" or "no" yet so I am waiting to see how that might or might not end up. The status of that situation is somewhat complicated and there are some issues to work out on both of our ends before anything can move forward or become anything more than what it currently is at the moment. 

For every great positive wonderful thing happening in that situation there are just as many if not more, unresolved and unstable issues that need to be fixed and worked around before anything can truly blossom into something even remotely permanent or semi permanent. I have to be content with what is there or have nothing. One major slip up or damaging problem could send it all down the drain whether or not that might be what we would want and I fear that possibility with a passion because that is not what I want to see happen. I have to leave this one with the God and Goddess and allow it to be what it will or will not be. No matter what my heart wants, needs, or desires or no matter what he may or may not think or feel, or what he may or may not want to see for us, that does not mean either of us will actually have or obtain it exactly as we might wish for.     

 

The other resolution? I just want this weight of constant financial strife and burden to lighten up, I'm sick and tired of struggling dollar to dime just to get by and having to always rely on others in some way to keep helping me pay bills and keep me and my little family afloat because that is not who I am inside. I was not raised to be dependent and overly reliant on anyone unless I couldn't avoid it!  I'm tired of getting a job and then having to give it up for what reason or another and it be weeks and months before something else comes along. I have not had a 40 hour a week steady job for 4 months now and that is starting to grind hard on me. I am currently a single parent and head of house and sole provider to everything that comes and goes here. As of this writing I am literally down to the change in my wallet broke. I'm in a moderate amount of debt, a lot more than I ever should have been to start with, most of that debt has been incurred for the fact I was trying to get myself ahead and do the right things for my life and I fell behind because I couldn't keep it up myself anymore. Most of the debt is overdue bills, credit payments, and a small schooling tuition, that I have to have  that tuition paid and my exams done before March 2014 or they will cancel my enrollment and I will not get my certificate and the stressful part of that is I have a 94%  average in my field of study and I am set to have a Honors Certificate. The total of my debts adds up to over $1000.00 and that is a huge weight on my mind. If I can swing everything until late January and my taxes come in time in February I just might be able to save myself a little bit. Sometime this year I want to move into a nicer place and a better neighborhood, the place I live now is slowly going to the dumps and honestly I hate living by the governments rules in a place that is not mine yet I am still responsible for it and they can tell me how to live and what I can and cannot do or have in my life, while I live in their apartments. I want this new home of mine that I want so badly, to have my name on it either as mine or a co signed deal and I have some rights and say over it and I can be free to do and be as I will and as I please in my own home. This is what I want to see happen this year for me. I will find a way and I have plenty of will, I just need to find a more concrete  and reliable way to help make it happen. I have a few side jobs floating me along and I am "Self Employed" but its only making me a dollar or two enough to get me by. Jobs in my county are very scarce. There is also the set back that I am visually impaired to where I cannot obtain a driver's license and that is sometimes a challenge. Public transport is sometimes not very accommodating and they charge ridiculous fees to get you point A to point B. Even magical practice, working a spell and fixing a charm, asking for divine assistance will not always fix everything and will only get you so far. Even I am not fool enough to believe that The God and Goddess will always favor me on just anything and will only assist me if they believe it will be best for me as a whole. Cash cannot be conjured from thin air on a whim and Goddess knows if that were possible we would have no worries! One thing I can do for myself right now is set up a massive Unblocking Spell and maybe add some Reversal and Banishment elements to it, to try and ease some of my worries and issues on every aspect of my current situations and ask and petition that some of them be removed and dynamited out of my way so I can move forward and achieve better things.    I hope everyone has a great New Year holiday and Blessed Be to all! 

A New Moon on New Year's Night!

Upon checking my calendar, I saw there is in fact going to be a New Moon on New Year's night, in the astrological sign of Capricorn. The year starts with a whopping 5 planets in Capricorn, so yes we steadfast achievers and workaholics will have a lot of chutzpah to start the year with. Hopefully yours truly here ,born Jan 18th, will have a great start to the New Year and something worth celebrating in someway or another. What I see as most important right now is that Venus the Love planet will be in retrograde until January 31st. Matters of love may not be so wonderful and this will be a time to scrutinize current relationships, and hash over relationship issues from the past and take a strong look at the relationships that we are currently in, to see whether or not things will make the cut. Some of us might even decide to back off a current relationship or go back to a previous one to see if there's still a reason or two to keep it alive or just throw dirt on it and walk away from it. I say don't go looking at the past, there is a reason that a past love is no longer with you and there is no reason to go back and reconsider or sit there and wonder what if. The past does not belong in the present or the future unless there is something to learn from it, otherwise, let it go and move forward. Also, don't take things from a past relationship and try to apply it to a current one, as in making comparisons, however if you see a pattern forming in this relationship that is similar from the last relationship, it might be time to make some serious changes. Love is on the back burner this month, or at the very least, given a careful and cautious eye, this is not a time to be a fool and rush into a new love interest, it might backfire in our faces. For those of us that are in a relationship now is a good time to work out some knots and go over things with a fine tooth comb, weeding out undesirable behaviors and patterns in order to make room for better and more fulfilling habits and create stronger bonds that are built to last.  It's a wonderful time to start the new year by getting rid of baggage and problems of all kinds that are possibly still plaguing us as this year comes to  a end. It is a time to begin something special on those New Year's resolutions lists we all have. Mine is to end these problematic financial issues of mine and begin a new job, and to find a way to increase my financial status. I guess the other issues concerning my lack of a long term commitment are just going to have to take a back seat and I have to be uncharacteristically patient and wait it out some more, isn't like I haven't done more than enough of that so a little while longer surely won't hurt anything?  Sometimes you have to put aside something you really truly want, in order to have other things you also need just as much. Tomorrow I have to babysit, it's a few dollars I earn during the week. so I am going to cut this page a bit short so I can finish the rest of my work around the house before the baby comes in the morning. Blessed Be everyone!