Battling the Demon

Well today was my birthday, yay, I'm 33 now. Or 3,033, whichever way you want to look at it.  That's how old I feel anyways. Today was not a good day, yesterday's events became much more aggravating, when a family member came up here at 10am to ask for that tracphone back, I discovered that Narcissist demon never bothered to tell me that it was my aunts phone, and supposedly she has to take this phone back with her to a meeting and prove that it's her phone otherwise she will lose her benefits?? I find it rather odd that no one needed this phone all  months I have had it, until yesterday, after I changed the number?  The phone itself had been deactivated for months and I had to get codes for it to work again and have minutes put back on it, and oh suddenly they need it back? There was someone called me asking for my aunt and I said to call her sister because this wasn't her. I chose to not be involved in whatever mess they are in its not anything  to do with me personally. After that odd phone call asking for my aunt I changed the number, which resulted in a very pissed Narcissist demon that was fuming because she can't call me. I guess tomorrow I'm gonna have to call my mom and tell her to not call that number I just gave her last night. I hope whatever birthday gift she is sending me contains the means for me to have my regular cell turned back on.
 Im rather annoyed that now I have absolutely no phone at all, but at the same time now she has screwed herself out of any way to possibly get ahold of me. I decided to let slip a few words that I know very well will get back to Narcissist demon because the whole point of them sending another family member over here is to obtain Intel and info about me and what's going on with me. I'm sure my family member doesn't just come over here just for her orders to check on me but that's not the point, I never saw this particular family member very much until she got involved with the Narcissist demon. Not hard to put that equation together. So I let slip a few bugs of info that I know will be carried straight back to Narcissist demon.  How about a threat of a restraining order and how about what will happen if you don't back the fuck off and leave me alone!
So what did I do for my birthday? Not a lot, I ended up staying home because its 29 degrees and it was too blasted cold to go out, but I ordered myself another birthday present, courtesy of Narcissist demon, if I have to lose something I need because of other people's problems that have nothing to do with me,  then I will replace it with something else that I need and let that be her consequence for causing me to lose my phone because of her lies and deceit. It does no end well to play games and fuck with me because you will so wish you had not! Trying to deliberately cause me problems because you aren't getting your way is only going to hurt you worse in the end.
While I'm a bit annoyed I dont have a phone, I have to also look at this situation from the obvious spiritual message being conveyed,  I feel that God and Goddess and of course Saint Holy Death stepped in and intervened, and said "She is not going to call and torture you and we will  make this right and take away her means of doing so." So let her sit there and think she has done something mean and spiteful just to hurt and piss me off, she hasn't done anything except hurt herself! She has been blaming her form of God, (shes a Baptist) and everyone for her problems and everything that's happened to her, and doing her damndest to hurt and abuse everyone she perceives as even remotely responsible for her misery, never mind the things she has deliberately said and done to bring it down on her own head. She has been digging her own hole down to the underworld and eventually she's gonna slip and fall headfirst into it.
One of the things that eats at her the worst, is the death of her only son, whom was my dad, three years ago, and what and how it is that she knows for a fact that it was partially from her own actions and behavior during the last months of his life, and possibly during his whole lifetime, that helped bring that event about. I clearly remember one day she called me and point blank said she wished he would hurry and die so she wouldnt have to fool with him anymore, and then a few days later he passed away. She made a huge show of her ass about the entire funeral, I was totally and deliberately left out of any of the arrangements, she wanted full control of everything, there were a lot of people she hurt and treated very poorly over his passing and funeral, a lot of people were very angry, disgusted, and abhorred, at how she acted, she totally disregarded any of his final wishes and made a grandiose spectacular scene of his funeral, because it was what she wanted, nevermind he asked to be cremated, and now everyone else is to blame for why  and how it is that he is dead. Never mind anything she done and said to help contribute to his demise. Never mind he was a alcoholic and mentally unstable most of his life, and brought a lot of his own health issues on himself.
I will not forget for a very long time how she treated me over him, as if I was entirely responsible and to blame for his problems and why it was he was never around when I was a kid, as if none of that were to happen if it wasn't for me? Her telling me I was not my dad's kid right after his funeral and I never had any say or business being involved since I never cared to begin with, was my breaking point with her.  Now shes taking her madness out on me. In her cracked mind all of her problems are caused by the fact I live and breathe.  Her hatred of me started the day I was born, as soon after she took out a life insurance policy on me worth several thousands, thinking if I were to die from my prematurity, there went money in her bank. There was no regards to whether or not I lived, she just saw how me being dead would benefit her. Every day I've been alive and breathing is a direct defiance of her authority and it makes her crazy because she isn't getting her way. That's what kind of monster she is.
If she is haunted by her son and he sits on the foot of her bed and follows her around like a rattling spectre I would not be surprised. She has become literally obsessed with her guilt and grief and denial over everything to do with him, and its destroying her and her relationships with everyone around her, add in her twisted and highly disturbing Narcissist complex, and you have a walking talking living demonic monster. The only way I know of to get rid of stuff like that is banishment, exorcism, and other such things but that doesn't work too well on the living, as alot of those types of rituals and spell workings revolve around spiritual matters instead of the living world. I need something that will last a good while or perhaps permanently. I will go for now I just noticed that I'm sitting here typing a book! I will be back soon and Bright Blessings to all!

Death of a Narcissist.

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! How has everyone's week been? Mine has been somewhat aggravating. So everyone knows that I have no cable or phone service correct? That means no house phone either. I deliberately did not pay the ridiculously expensive bill on time and they turned it off, and it has been off since right after xmas holiday. If they want to really charge me that much for basic services and jack up my bill higher, then they can stick their services where the sun don't shine! Anyways, this might be a blessing in disguise, for the Narcissist monster can't call me 50 times a week...or so I thought. Today my tracphone rang and guess who it was? Leaving a  snarky message about "you need to call me immediately there is something wrong with your phone!" Excuse you?! No one orders or demands of me to call them period! If I want to call you I know the number and I will do so when I damn feel like it! There aint anything wrong with my phone, except that it's turned off and unplugged from the damn router box so no calls can still come through. Apparently even if I have no service here that does not mean that I cannot receive incoming calls? I fixed both problems by unplugging the entire router from the cables and the wall. Then I decided to change the tracphone number considering someone else from the family that got sent up here by the Narcissist, to check on me on Tuesday, was so informative and decided to go ahead and tell them that my other phone works. This makes the second time I have had to change a phone number now. I have been so fed up with this situation that I am seriously considering a call to law enforcement and have someone to go have a chat with said Narcissist monster, and let them explain that repeatedly calling and leaving messages like that is not advisable and what kind of consequences could result if they don't shut up and stay away from me and stay out of mine and my child's lives! The law getting involved is the last resort and something I'd rather not have to do, but obviously there's people that do not want to get the point or understand what "leave me alone" means.

On a much brighter note, yesterday I ordered some new spell supplies, its my belated birthday present, some nice bottles of spell oil from a reputable supplier. Normally I make my own, however the witch at White Magic Alchemy has some fantastic supplies, and they are well worth the extra money spent! Her "powerful immediate money drawing" oil is divine, it works every time I use it. I also ordered some of her "prosperity" and "fortuna" oils that I am sure will compliment the original oil very nicely! If I ever need something extra special aside from my own stuff then I know where to go find it. The Friday of January 22nd is the day for money spells as it is the "Friday before a full moon" day of which is best for money and love spells. Although if the situation with Narcissist monster doesn't come to an end or some resolution soon, I may very well be digging out the banishing supplies instead.  The Seal Up Your Problems jar spell that I made back in November for the exact purpose of getting rid of the Narcissist issues has not manifested exactly like I asked for, so maybe I either need to recharge it or try something else a bit stronger? I have blocked numbers, changed my numbers twice, and even refused to have my house phone reconnected, and when I don't answer the phone, someone comes up here to "check on me". I was not aware that I was an invalid or a child that needs constant supervision and monitoring? Pissing this witch off the wrong way will result in you becoming more worse off than just being transfigured into a toad! Speaking of toads, Lucan the dragon doesn't like toads, they are loud and annoying and when he happens to step on them they will make a horrid sqeak sound and squish into his foot like something slimy, and scraping a mashed toad off your foot pad and toes isn't pretty or fun. I just made myself laugh trying to visualize that!  Perhaps I just might turn the Narcissist monster into a toad with a lame leg, and when it croaks too loud and then tries to  crawl away, there shall be no more annoying toadie to worry about, because then he will mash it on purpose just to get it to hush up, never mind if its yucky to clean later. No, dragons are sometimes not the sweetest creatures, if you annoy one bad enough you will end up a crispy critter or a twitching toadie pancake. He also despises the Narcissist monster with a revulsion that makes his skin crawl and it takes a lot of patience and will on my end to keep him from acting on what would be considered homicidal tendencies. Never mind pissing off the witch, how about we don't piss off the dragon eh? But if people want to be incinerated to crispy bits or made into toadie mash then oh well have at it then!

January 9,2016 New Moon

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! I hope you all had a nice new moon night? I got time alone to do my usual spell work and it seemed to go well. I had a downturn of the nights events however, as while I was eating coconut glazed cashews, I broke the entire tip end off my right upper canine! I guess the first order of business for this year is a expensive dentist visit! I have been putting off the dental work for a good while, as all the work I would need done runs in the thousands, and who has that kind of funds to just hand over? I have to say if I won a sizeable chunk of that one and a half billion powerball lottery, that would be great to have right now!  Wishful ideas won't get me too far though, I need to focus on more concrete and obtainable goals. Such as finishing the short story that I am working on, and the second installment of my memoir, and hopefully passing that transcriptionist exam! I have as shot at a decent paying full time salary, if I can successfully pass that demanding and rigorous exam. Transcription work was originally something I was not interested in, however the amount of messages suddenly flooding my inbox and promotional folders suggests that this might be a divine message pointing me into a new career path. When you suddenly begin seeing repeated messages like that it is best to at least investigate why, as sometimes those can be messages from Higher Powers that be, trying to get your attention.
I decided to rework a spell jar of mine, as I have not been getting the results I asked for, and upon consultation of my divination tools, it was revealed that redoing the spell would be a wise move. So in the kitchen I went, creating a new candle, and carefully reconstructing and tweaking the contents of the jar.  Seeing as Mercury is in retrograde, the redoing of old projects and etc is favorable. Hopefully results will manifest in a few weeks, however slowly, since we are in Mercury retrograde until January 25th. The retrograde phase will not lift entirely until the first week of February. I also charged up my money bags and did a little abundance spell I recently learned, where you write a real check to yourself, in  a request to powers of wealth and abundance to pay out or deliver the amount you're asking for to be paid in full. The abundance spell is done on the new moon, and the check itself is burnt on the following full moon, to activate the spell. I tried this spell during Xmas and it brought in a good result. If you do not have personal checks of your own, you can write one out on a piece of quality paper, in the image of what a bank check looks like, and use that instead. The key to the check spell working, is that you are to put it away and forget about it until the full moon, just set yourself a reminder for the full moon night to burn the paper. This is going to be a short post, I have a ton of other work to do, and the witch's work is never done! Blessed Be to all, and I will return soon!

New Year 1-1-2016

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings and Happy New Year! I hope everyone starts their year in a fantastic way. I have utilized my son's Android tablet and WiFi signal to type this post with, so I'm starting the year learning to use newer technology.  I was never the type that really got into tech toys but I think it might be time that I learned a few new tricks! Right this minute, I have no cell service, no cable or internet service either until I get the bills paid. Mercury retrograde is smacking me hard and it hasn't officially started yet! I just hope that nothing else happens the rest of the month because this is quite enough! Actually this retrograde might be the learning to adapt phase I needed since I'm sitting here working with my son's complicated gadgetry. My 33rd birthday is looming and technology has zoomed way ahead of me, and I admit to being somewhat slow when it comes to tinkering with gadgets. I didn't have my first cell phone until I was 21, if that is any indication of how behind the times I am!  I guess one of my new years resolutions is to change that outdated mode of how I get things done!
Now onto more witchy topics. The next new moon comes on January 9th and while normally it is the time to begin new endeavors, the mecury retrograde will have begun four days prior. So I will say that it will be better to go back to projects you have not yet finished or put on hold, and resume working on those for this month. Publishing and ideas related to written work seems to be a highlighted theme also for this new moon. Seeing as this retrograde is mostly going to be in the sign of Capricorn, I guess I have to be extra careful and pay attention to my work, just last night, I was working on a short story that I need to finish. Hopefully it will be done and ready to publish soon. Perhaps I might utilize this interesting little tablet to further my writing career this year! I am going to go for now, this toy needs to charge for a bit. I will return as soon as I can! Blessed Be to all!

December Full Moon Update

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! I am back again to update you all on the Full Moon we just had, I hope everyone had a great Solstice and Yule? What a fantastic Full Moon we had recently! I regret that I did not get to enjoy it as much as I wanted. We went to my mom's and right before this, I came down with the coughing croup, courtesy of having to go out in the damp, to do last minute gift shopping. It poured the rain the entire Christmas/Yule holidays while I was at my mother's and I spent the whole time I was over there, in the throes of coughing fits and sleeping off a mild fever and just plain miserable.  That was so not how I wanted to spend x-mas with family!  We did not see sunshine until yesterday. It has been a beautiful and very unseasonable 75 degrees outside the past two days, however I have been stuck inside since I came back home, either laid up in bed or creeping around the house like a zombie, doped up with OTC medicine so I can somewhat function, one minute I'm freezing and then I'm hot again, and when I get too hot the barking seal coughing starts. Before all this,  during the weekend of the 18th, I managed to pull off a request to St Martha and St Holy Death for a favor. As of yet I have not exactly seen any serious signs of my petition being favored or not, unless maybe you count me suddenly coming down with the croup. Today I managed to feel good enough to do some light chores, and clean up some holiday mess, yesterday I made myself do some laundry, because the basket was heaped high with two weeks' worth of clothes. Typical Capricorn me...the second I feel a pinch better, I am back into work and chore mode.
So how many of us got engaged, married, or stepped up commitments in both love and business over the holiday? That was the theme for this past Full Moon in Cancer, relationships in both love and work and financial related endeavors received a sparkling beam of favor from the cosmos on this Full Moon, Whatever you asked for, and whatever transpired for you will continue to manifest in different ways over the next two weeks. New Years is set to be fantastic, some of us may travel for New Year's Eve and enjoy luxurious festivities with our partners in both business relations and with our sweethearts. I am not sure yet what I will be doing for New Year's but I personally hope this cold and coughing goes away so I can at least be in a better mood by then, and I do not ring in the New Year sounding like a half dead frog. Perhaps I will get a midnight kiss, or even maybe a proposal, from a very special someone, that would be a great way to kick off the New year right!
We have Mercury Retrograde coming on January 5th and this is due to last until January 25th, so expect communication and technology breakdowns and all kinds of other slow downs and snafus related to how we relate with others and go back and forward in our daily lives. Work projects and things at home will go slow and have issues too, so expect to see a slow start to the first quarter of the year for business, finances, and work. Do not sign contracts or begin important negotiations during this time either, as they will be fraught with unforeseen problems and snags. Wait until the end of January or the first week of February to resume important talks and sign paperwork, especially tax documents,mortgages, rental leases, credit, or bank loans, and hold off to begin new projects at home and at work. Communications in personal relationships will be slow or non existent too, or perhaps will see major strains during this time, please mind your temper and your patience during the retrograde! My birthday comes smack in the middle of the retrograde phase, (January 18th) so I cannot say that I am too pleased with that notion! Perhaps I will spend my birthday quietly at home, and not going anywhere, or doing anything spectacular, nor speaking much to anyone! We Capricorns in particular are set to have a ridiculously slow and stalled start to the year. I will be back again soon, to update y'all on how things are going, for now though I am going to go and rest and focus on getting over this crud. Blessed Be to all!  

Upcoming New Moon 12-11-2015, White Flags and Silver Lined Doorways!

Hello everyone and Brightest Blessings! Today I reached the milestone of writing 100 posts for this blog! It has taken me a couple of years to get this far, and I appreciate everyone that has read, liked,shared, and been with me this whole time! How was everyone's Thanksgiving? Mine was rather short and sweet, I went to my mother's and we had a small meal, and I had to hurry back home, where I live it is not advisable to leave the apartment unguarded or noticeably vacant for too long.  I also cannot leave my cat to himself for long either. So my holiday and family time was a short and simple affair, and I spent the rest of the school break enjoying some peace and quiet. Today I started a Wordpress blog, and I am not too sure that I like it much yet. I am still going to be a faithful and dedicated user of my precious Blogger, I have had it too long to just abandon it, and I am sure some of you would miss me if I were to say goodbye to Blogger.
The New Moon that is coming on December 11,2015, promises to be fired up and intense, due to the influence of Sagittarius, and Jupiter forming a squared position, forcing us to see silver lined doorways and finally waving the proverbial White Flag. Remember in the last post, where I mentioned turbulent emotions and potential breaking of bonds and relationships, and possibly having to be walking away from things, people and situations that no longer are good for us? Well that theme and scenario seems set to fully manifest by the New Moon, as this is the time of endings and of new beginnings. I saw a sign of this in my own life just yesterday, when I got a call from a slightly soused relative, who was exclaiming rather loudly and belligerently about how it was that the other narcissistic monster family member has called them repeatedly, and demanding to know if I have been seen or heard from, and supposedly they got into a huge heated and ugly phone argument about my continued absence and deliberate silence.  ** upward stare and heavy sigh**
I was reading a horoscope article for Capricorn for this coming week, which directly mentions letting go of things and people that are a source of "irreconcilable differences" on the day of the New Moon. See here >>Capricorn Weekly Horoscope 12-6 to 12-13   I felt this article was pretty spot on with what I've been seeing and hearing for the last few days, and I foresee a lot of light being shed on the darkness. I feel that during this New Moon, some of us will see just how far into the deep end people can sink, and how low people can really act, and how deeply their twisted darkness extends. As the above mentioned horoscope post reads and I quote..." You could learn of someone's toxic intentions this week. Bolt the door on these snakes, even if it means taking legal action to keep them out of your life."  Ironically I remember mentioning just yesterday that if anyone brought their madness to my doorstep then I was considering filing a restraining order, I really hope it does not have to come to that! Perhaps I should actually buy a sliding bolt lock to install on the inside of my door, seeing as the flimsy door frame and lock in the doorknob isn't meant to withstand pounding and shoving and a potential forced entry. The door has been seen and known to pop open from the frame even if the door is locked, as the door jamb and the frame is uneven and has settled slightly off.  
This New Moon will also be a great time to say good bye for good to any kind of self defeating attitudes, thought patterns and behaviors. either stemming from ourselves, or emanating from others. Do not allow anyone to tell you why it is you cannot or should not do something, or let them stand there in the doorway of your life being the be the Debbie Downer. Don't quit 5 minutes before the miracle and don't talk yourself out of doing something, or let doubts and insecurities cloud your judgement or views, or be allowing others to dump their acid rain on your budding dreams and ideas and plans for something better. Let go of those self defeating ideas and thought patterns and stop associating and being acquainted with people that treat you as if nothing you say and do will matter or be of any importance, see the silver lining and the great things that will open up for you by allowing yourself to let go of the bad situations and irreconcilable differences, and the people and situations that cause them. The reward for letting go of negative things and people, will be watching the silver door that opens wide and beckons to us to follow our most beautiful dreams and achieve the levels of success that we have always aspired to attain. I will leave you all with this post to ponder about, I will return soon to update after the New Moon. Blessed Be to all!    
      

Gemini Full Moon, coming November 25, 2015.

Hello everyone and Bright Blessings! I hope everyone had a great New Moon?  If you will recall, I made a new black and green charm bag, and at that time I had not decided what to do with it.  I ended up making a Money Uncrossing bag out of it, and it now is nestled in my purse with my other Money Drawing and Financial spell related bags that I have previously done. I carry my charm bags everywhere I go, and they pretty much live inside a pocket of my purse. Did my new charm bag have any effect on my life yet? Well sort of.. I got accepted into various online freelance writing sites, however, my writings, articles, and work that I have so far submitted and pitched to various clients, has been flat out rejected. Only thing I know to say about that is that it is their loss, and I'm sorry they can't bother to take the time to see what good is really right in front of them, I refuse to feel bad for myself or to accept that I am not good enough for someone else's approval or acceptance. There will be someone that approves of me and my work eventually, I just have to find the right person and organization that I can work with.    
There is a Full Moon coming on November 25,2015, and the sign it falls in is Gemini. Gemini is a difficult sign and energy to work around and deal with at times, the Twins can be two faced, have  very dual personality, and maddeningly Jekyl and Hyde in their actions and behaviors that go from emotional and mental extreme to another at warp speed. The energy is all about push and pull, give and receive, one minute a Gemini can hate you and the next they will decide to forgive you, they will love you for everything you are one day, and the next you are scum of the earth and they will never speak to you again, and sometimes you don't even know what set them off, or if it was anything you even done or said to start with. Their extreme sense of pride is also their downfall, and getting the Gemini to swallow that pride for the sake of common sense, maturity, responsibility, and taking the consequences of their bad behavior and words, admitting to themselves and others that what they might have said or done was wrong or out of line, and persuading them into being a better person for the greater good of themselves and others is a very hard task. Many times, a seething anger and extreme defensiveness is their first reaction to being confronted or called out on the bad behavior.  

The energy of this Gemini Full Moon coming up, is going to bring on a lot of conversations this next couple of weeks that are going to be ugly, raw, intense, and brutal, with fault finding, nit picking, brow beating, and woe is me, guilt trips and pity parties. Be looking for Needy Nancy and Debbie Downer,and perhaps Atrocious Anna, the energy this week is gearing up for it, so batten down the hatches, haul in the draw bridges, and fortify the emotional barriers. I all but guarantee some of us are in for a not too pleasant couple of weeks when it comes to some extreme and hard situations and conversations, long over due emotional examinations, and people that threaten to suck you down into their private little holes of  dead despair and masochistic/sadistic misery. This might already be happening for some of us right now. Also be looking for the situation of being deliberately left out, blown off, and cut off of gatherings, conversations, and other people's plans and not being told about it until the last minute, or finding out about it later that they never intended to include or involve you at all. Some people are going to be rather selfish and self involved of their own wants and needs and be all about "Me, Myself, and I", and the furthering of their own motives and agendas, and never mind how it might negatively impact or even destroy their other good relationships with others in the long run. Some people think it is better to hurt others and basically cut their own nose off to spite their face, and they callously and ruthlessly do so, as long as it gets them what they think is better for them. Sadly later on, they will realize this was a huge mistake, and they they have done so much damage that it is not repairable.
Don't be surprised if you suddenly decide that you are the one walking away from a person or situation surrounding them, because they just finally acted in such a way as to totally turn you off, and they show a side of themselves in such a shocking, painful, and unexpected way that you just cannot accept or acclimate with it, and you have to just end your associations with them, until if and when they decide to act better or change for the better. Some people might take their attitudes and behavior to the point of no return, and you have to just end your relationship and associations with them permanently. Remember this is a positive thing in it's own way, however painful or regretful it might be, as Goddess and God are showing you what and whom you no longer need in your life and why. this can sometimes be a harsh lesson in how to grow and become a better person for ourselves, it serves a higher purpose, by creating a protective distance and barrier between you and what and whom is no longer good for you, or of any positive role to your life. I personally am going to start the holidays with a huge cleansing and smudging ritual of myself, my home, and especially my sacred space, and add in the protection and grounding elements, because I know exactly what kind of mayhem and madness I am about to have to deal with, and I totally expect to see in my own life some of the things I have mentioned above, as I am already seeing some signs of it coming in my own little world. I a going to try my best to be prepared, and hopefully I will come out of this next two weeks without too many burned bridges and broken walls.  hope you all have a good Full Moon Time, and I will return this coming Friday, to tell you all of how my time went.

November 2015 New Moon Work *Update*.

The New Moon of November falls on Wednesday 11-11-2015, and I have completed one of my Seal Up Your Problems, jar spells, and tomorrow I am working on another one for a different result. Saint Holy Death was my choice of spirits to ask for a favor yet again. She does fantastic work about and for removing problems and banishing and reversal work for me! I was going to do both jars tonight but I didn't have enough time before midnight, so the next one will be for later tonight. I suppose I have now become a official devotee of Her Deathly Holiness, or She has decided to stay with me for whatever Her reasons may be. We have a Friday 13th coming right after the New Moon and I'm excited about that too!  That will be a great day to ask for new things like money, love, luck, and special favors to come into our lives, as 13 is the number of transformation and transitions from old to new, and the #13 Tarot card is also the Death card. Hmm..endless possibilities for this Friday the 13th indeed!
While working on my spell jar, I opened up a bottle of very potent home made Black Protection Oil, that I have had for literally over a year now, it has sat steeping that long, the color is a deep black and now the scent is very similar to tomcat or skunk spray! Why and how exactly it turned out that strongly, I don't know, it is not spoiled or gone bad that I can tell, but if that stuff don't protect me from negative and harmful influences I don't know what will! Who and what would want to be near you or in your house if they smelled that?! LOL!! Also the Banishing Oil I have has a potent smell, very much like strong garlic, sulfur and some very stout spicy hot vinegar. I have also had that jar for a very long time and it is definitely not safe to inhale directly or possibly get in your eyes or nose on accident because it will make you tear up , sneeze, and go on like crazy. I have watched critters and bugs go around and avoid where the oil and the powder formula has been applied to the house boundaries and doorways, and the scent lingers a good while.
On the actual day and night of the New Moon, I'm going to place my entire focus on obtaining the new job I have my eyes on, and passing that transcription exam that I have been instructed to study about a bit more, if I can ace this test then there will be some good money coming my way very soon! I am also going to work on writing my next book some more..it is slowly getting finished!  I am also going to be asking for a boost in my book sales at Smashwords , as I very desperately need to see that happen too! I also had some inspiration strike me and tonight  ended up sitting in the kitchen, steadily and patiently sewing and creating a new green and black spell charm bag. I haven't decided yet what purpose I am going to use it for. It might be a smart idea to use it for money drawing and money uncrossing and protection, specifically for this new job I am about to take the exam for, Black and green candles, bags, charms, etc..have a wide range of uses, the black side is used to uncross, protect, reverse, and remove unwanted financial problems, and ward off hex, jinx, curse, and bad luck, and the green side is to bring in more positive monetary intentions such as money flow, success, financial stability, luck, and wealthy pursuits. When I decide what exactly I am using my new bag for , I will post a update and tell y'all what I done with it. for now though, this witch is going to hop off of here, and go finish working on that spell bag! Have a great New Moon and Friday the 13th, I will see you all soon!
Below is a pic of my newest creation...it is not yet entirely finished, but the bag itself is sewn up. I just have to add the leather drawstring, and then add the spell ingredients and etc into it. The fabric is cotton quilt squares,and there is tiny knot work sewn all through the seams. It is black on one side and green on the other. I would learn to use a sewing machine to make these, but I feel the hand stitched method is more magically productive, as you are sewing and knotting your intent with your own hand into the bag, and the whole mechanical process of a electric machine just doesn't provide that.      

  

Doing Things Mamaw's Way.. 11-6-2015

As modern science and healthcare is constantly being revolutionized and "improved upon"..your modern day Dr is going to suggest some standard, book learned ideas and treatments to cure your sicknesses and ailments, treat your elderly and children, and even possibly save your life. They will scoff at and tell you that these Old Wive's tales and Folk Medicines are false and what we have learned for generations from our Old Women holds no value, and how it is that Mamaw's Ways are outdated, a lie, and unconventional.  Yes, some of these ideas and remedies have proven to really have no positive effect or hold a serious meaning to better our lives. But let me explain, for a week or longer now, me and my son have had a nasty cold. I ended up buying OTC manufactured chemical medicine for this because well my kid's doctor suggested it..and he has to go to school despite being pretty miserable. Needless to say, despite this artificial quick fix and "good advice" from what is supposed to be a certified professional, we are not yet feeling better. Adam is still coughing and hacking like a half dead seal, and has a sore throat and stuffed up sinuses that show no signs yet of going away. Had I done this Mamaw's Way and NOT followed this "professional's well meaning advice, we would probably be feeling a lot better by now. But alas, I am low on some supplies and some herbs needed to make some good old timey sick cures. Old Mamaw is probably not too thrilled with my slacking on that either..if she were still physically here with us, she might actually smack me upside my head with a wood spoon and scold me about "Girl did you hear, why you not minding me?"  Old Mamaw was said to not be too gentle with her version of tough love...she meant what she said and done what she intended without hesitation, and Goddess and "Lawd" forbid she had to find a switch and come looking for you when or if you weren't to be found anywhere or caught slacking and not minding your tasks she said to be doing..there was no "child abuse" back then..it was called "told to mind"..
Our Mamaws and Great Mamaws and the Old Wives long before them, came from the mountains, the "hollers" and hills and way back in the sticks and swamps, and they were curing the sick, and all but raising the dead, (and sometimes they even did that!).. back in the days when schooled and trained doctors didn't really exist and medical science was a fledgling idea. These women could throw a seemingly unmeasured handful of herbs roots,and a assortment of other items, picked and gathered fresh that day from a wild patch, into a well seasoned iron pot of natural spring water,also brought in fresh from the stream or well pump, boil the brew down to a syrup, mix that syrup with a stout shot or two of home distilled 150 proof sour mash liquor, (moonshine) add "a dab" or "a pinch" of whatever else her personal secret ingredients were, give you a unmeasured "spoonful" of her well made cure once a day and night, and whatever sickness you had was sure to be drove out of you within three to seven days.Why? How does this work?: Because the Old Wife or Mamaw made it for you, and she knew exactly what she was doing.  Life threatening fevers broke, "ill vapors" and "bad spirits" were sweated out, the blood was purified of taint, rattling, fluid filled, lungs were opened and cleared out, you slept like the dead until you were better. Goddess forbid you had a "bilious fever" because you were given strong emetics and bowel stimulants mixed with castor oil to flush the illness out of both ends until it was seen that you were cured. Yes that is a bit harsh, but it works..where do you think the idea of  modern day "Colon Cleansing" and "Detox" remedies comes from?
If actual "haints" or negative spiritual presence was thought to be the cause of the illness, then specialty cures and diagnostics existed for that too and were done in conjunction with the sick cure. the hex, curse, or "evil eye", or the "haint"was cast out and removed via several methods, and was followed by strong bouts of herbal smoke fumigation and other types of cleansing and blessing of the house and people affected. If you showed a knack to learn what Old Mamaw and the Old Wives knew, then you were very lucky and being taught what she knew was a rare privilege. Old Wives didn't read or write well back then, if at all, as getting a advanced education was not as important back then, and everything was shown by hand and passed down by oral sermon, so best that you were paying close attention.
 Old Wives were sought out for cures and advice, and the occasional miracle back in the days when no one could help. If you were laid up with the "croup" and your kids and even the livestock and animals were deathly sick, as fevers and communicable illness were life threatening back then, the Old Wife or maybe even Mamaw could make you feel better. If you had bad Moon Times and had problems with certain Fertility Issues and couldn't conceive or carry a child,or even your Husband was afflicted somehow, Old Wife or Mamaw knew where to find the roots and herbs,and other needed items, and what to do with them, to help ease those issues and ensure a healthy pregnancy, and often she was also was there to deliver the baby. If her sour mash liquor looked like crystal clear spring water, had absolutely no taste, and burned bright blue flames when lit with a flame, it was well made and highly prized for it's aide in making medicines and offerings to benevolent and healing spirits, and not just for the Old Man's midnight runs down the road. Especially Blessed were your family and the surrounding households if by chance one of these Old Wives and Mamaws were Native American or Irish either pure blood or by descent, for their special  brand of wisdom and knowledge of medicines and spiritual cures was unparalleled back in the day, and in certain places it still is even now. I speak of only a few Southern traditions and that does not mean these Old Wives and Mamaws are only found in the South and are only just Native American or Irish though..I will say that the Old Wives and Mamaws that still thrive in the Appalachian Mountains, are well known for their abilities! There's a kind of magic and medicine that exists there that is found nowhere else on the earth! It is rivaled only by Southern Conjure, New Orleans Voodoo and Hoodoo, and similar practices, with its ability to heal, cure, and work in miraculous ways.  
It took me a good while to learn the things that the Old Wives and Mamaws knew that once lived and practiced in my own family..because both passed away long before I was born, and I never got to hear their stories or learn their crafts from them personally. No one in my current immediate family bothered to remember or actively use the skills that were passed along, and now a lot of it has been forgotten or cast aside as "Old Wives Tales" and considered "unreliable, uneducated and backwards thinking" or worse..they were converted to being Baptist or some type of Christian and totally shunned and deliberately cast out and tried to stamp out the "shame" and "sins" of their family's past, and purposely forgotten what they should have kept alive and thriving. Some of the older people from  our grandparents generation, still remember bits and bobs about how to garden by the signs, can food, and a few other things.think about "The Farmer's Almanac"..that is literally a book of magical practices that has been very cleverly disguised and how many people use one that would never once think about that idea? I am sure that our ancestors are probably shaking their heads at the younger generations in shame and regret!
I discovered quite early in life that I have the same talent for herbal and spiritual cures and other practices as they once did, and I have endeavored to try and learn and practice and add to them One of my Great Great Grandmothers in mom's family,was Cherokee, her family line comes from the deep coves of Alabama originally. More Old Wives and Mamaws in my family come from the mountains in South Carolina, and they were mostly Irish and German descent. I also got passed the gift of being a Empath and Sensitive, and this particular gift apparently just totally skipped my mom and the rest of the earlier generations before me, this is said to also be a passed down trait from the Old Wives and Mamaws, as a couple of them were known to have the same gift..which is also how it is that I have picked up a few lessons that I know now.
There is learning to be a Witch and then there's some of us that are born a Witch, and despite what others will sometimes try to tell you, being naturally born a Witch is definitely advantageous and comes with a distinct edge over having to learn from everything from bare bones scratch.Yes anyone can learn to harness and use their latent gifts and develop their skills, but those of us that were born with our talents have a far easier time with learning and developing them. I will not tone down the obvious facts.
The Old Wives and Old Mamaw's spirits are far from dead and forgotten, and many times I have found my mind and hands busily working of their own accord in the kitchen to mix a herb with a certain root, or mix this ingredient with that "pinch of" something else, along with plenty of spells, charms, crafts, and other things that I make and create. My own mother often tells me I am "just like her momma" and who is to say that Mamaw isn't still alive in her own way? Mamaw was the one that told my mother that "You won't get to have any babies to live until after I am gone" and her words held true,what she heard, saw, or knew about in regards to that event specifically, well she never would tell anyone. I was born almost a year later right after she passed away, after my mom had went through two miscarriages and was told she couldn't have kids at all.. I know better than to question the way that particular power of the Old Wives and Old Mamaws works. It was always said that some things were best left alone and let be what it was going to be, and never mind the why and how of it, and questioning or expressing any doubts of Mamaw's and the Old Wives words would get you whacked with a spoon or that "old stick" of a inconspicuous looking wand or staff she was using to stir that well used iron pot with! Yeah..there was a very strong chance that mine and your Old Mamaw and the Old Wife was a Witch of some kind, and their descendants live on to this day, way off in the sticks,  back in the boonies, deep in the hollers, and high on the mountains.  

November's New Moon Intentions.

Hey everyone and Bright Blessings! How was you Samhain? Mine was pretty decent, I took my son on a 5 mile trip to trick or treat, and spent the rest of the night watching ghost hunting shows. I did not have any more spiritual visits or have anymore experiences the rest of the holiday, but I suppose that one dream about my deceased father was enough. Today I have resumed the task of getting rid of people, situations and relationships that no longer are good for me or serve a healthy or fulfilling purpose to my life..and I started that with changing my cell number today. It is now a totally private number and is going to be only given to a select few. There is one particular person in my life that just needs to disappear for good, this person is regrettably a immediate family member, and this person has absolutely no respect for my personal boundaries, does not have any  respect for my privacy, and could care less about my emotional or spiritual well being or that of my family or our lives as a whole. Their extreme, out of control, narcissism, and other potential personality disorders, have finally gotten to the point where I have absolutely no desire to even see, speak to, or associate with them, and we have a very long 25 year history of going back and forward..with them trying to constantly force and steamroll themselves in our lives and me trying to just push them out and keep them away. I have moved out of state three different times and tried everything in my human power to attempt to get this person to let go of their choke hold of my life and just leave me alone for good. I'm done tolerating it, done with "having to" deal with it for whatever supposed necessary reasoning and just put up with and accept it because they are my "family", no more..today was the last day.

I could care less really if I don't talk to them anymore, they can never ever call me again or come to see me at all and I will be totally fine with that. I do not give a rats behind if we don't receive any of their "financial assistance" to help pay bills or do things for my kids, we never asked for it or insinuated that we needed or wanted any of their financial aide or anything that was theirs to begin with!! I do not want them coming to my home and just walking into my space like they live here and have every God and Goddess given right to just waltz in like they own the place and not even knock or bother to announce their arrival. Even the most lax of social standards considers that flat farking rude! I do not need to listen to 5 voicemail messages a day, and see 10 missed calls, even after I blocked their number from calling, detailing what they are threatening to do and what will happen if I do not return their calls right now, and what horrid consequences I will face if I do not do exactly what I am told to do and when and as they say to do. I am not moving back over to their county of residence,and they are not going to be allowed to claim me or my kid on their taxes this year, I have heard that scheme for 4 years in a row now, and I am fed up with hearing about it..That is not and ever will happen! This attitude and behavior from them has seriously gotten to the point where the law and a judge or attorney would consider it several forms of harassment or even possibly stalking. I do not and have never been crippled in my mind or body to the point where I need to be told when to pay bills, how to raise my kids, when to do this, how to do that, and what for and why according to their specifications!! And then there is the idea, according to them, of how that we would never have anything or have a life worth living at all if it was not for them "helping" us and being there for us, never mind the overstated fact that the only reason they are even part of our lives at all is because I tried to have enough decency and respect for that word "family" to even allow it to begin with.

Well today that load of shit got tossed out like waste in a old fashioned bed chamber pot. I am tired of hearing about how selfish and self centered I supposedly am, and how cold it is that I act and how I do not care about no one or nothing and how it is that I think about no one but myself, and a whole list of other negative and derogatory accusations and opinions..last time I checked it's called taking care of me and mine and minding my own business and making a point to not get involved in situations that are not good for us. So this coming New Moon, there is going to be a drastic change I will be initiating and a very new beginning for us will start very soon. I think it's time I got out the instructions and items needed for the "Seal Up Your Problems" jar spell again..it looks like I am about to be needing it.  I'm sorry everyone this is not a cheerful post, I will write again with more positive and uplifting news  very shortly. Have a good week and Blessed Be!